i'm just tired

ahh.. here i go again. so unpredictable. so..... tak tetap pendirian.

well, what happened previously was, i blocked the people who followed my blog, changed the url and kept it to private. yeap. it's because i wrote something that i didn't want anybody to read it except me. but somehow, hmm.. u know what happen oredy cuz u r able to access this blog. congrats *cynical*.

anyway.

a lot of things happened to me lately. good things? maybe 1 or 2. mostly, sangat mengazabkan. i have come to a point in my life where i said to myself "kenapela banyak sangat dosa aku ni sampai Tuhan nak hukum aku sebegini??"

ya. aku hipokrit. as stated in the url that i had changed just now.

this is what i'm talking about "the new me". u know what, i should just change the blog's name as well. instead of "the new me, perhaps" it should be just "the new me". cuz there's no doubt about it. fo sho.

manusia.

susah betul nak tafsir. nak baca. nak kenal. nak percaya. nak..nak apa lagi.

tapi, manusia.

senang betul ditipu. diputar belit. dikhianati. dijatuhkan.

jadi, aku ini manusia bagaimana?

ya. aku jatuh dalam kedua-dua kategori.

but one thing is for sure:

" walau sebesar mana pun masalah yang aku hadapi, aku tak akan tumpahkan walau setitik air mata."

kerana itu azamku. aku dah penat menangis, mengeluhkan nasib yang sampai bila-bila pun tak akan berubah. dan setakat ini, aku belum lagi menangis.

oh well, except when i'm watching korean movies or hide's funeral. obviously.

apa nak jadi pun jadi lah. mengalah? putus asa? tidak. i'm just tired.