Saturday, January 31, 2009


today's lunch : maggie & nescafe.

sedih? sedih lagi mereka di gaza.

p/s : my friend's father passed away recently due to cancer. dunno what kind of cancer it was. AL-FATIHAH.

jrock vs kpop

new craze :



Wednesday, January 28, 2009

a tribute to someone special

i dreamt of ikhwan last night. god, i must have missed him lately. or perhaps, i have forgotten him.i wonder how he's been doing there. hopefully he's among the right people.

if only i could tell you this, ikhwan, that you are one of the best thing that ever happen to me. i'm no good when it comes to boys, and yet you were like who-cares-if-you-hate-me and make friends with me. it's funny when i think back of our good old times, when you always nagged to pipah, holding hands with reza (and boy seriously i thought you were gay!) and kept complaining bout me for not smiling...

i still have the book, ikhwan. where i asked you to wrote down your biodata.and then you were sulking a lil bit cuz you said that you've been asking for the book for a long time. so in return, you said, it's not gonna be as pretty and creative as it would be if i had given it to you earlier.and in the book, you once said when the first time you met me, you wondered why i always frowned, didn't smile a lot, and then you said on that day i was like orang baru bercinta! lol. whatever la ikhwan. perhaps you were right. perhaps i was happy back the other day because you were there for me..

did you remember the happy mother's day card? the card that we : me, you, pipah and yunnie created and we got in the first place? well to think about it i thought i still have it. but i guess i must have lost it somewhere. i promise i'll look back for it later.i kept laughing when i think about how you annoyed me with your lousy mouth that didn't seem to shut up even for a minute. and how you argued with pipah cuz you wanted to do it in your own way.god i swear you were soo drama queen!

and now it's too late right? i won't be able to tell you all of this. and yet there's a lot more to say. believe it or not, it's one of the biggest thing that i regret. if only i could tell you this, ikhwan, that i'm sorry i didn't have the chance to meet you. i'm sorry i was so rough to you back the other day.i'm sorry i was so jealous of you because you were so creative, talented and smart. and i'm sorry for not holding on to my promises,that we would go to the same high school.unfortunately sekolah agama is really not for me la ikhwan, so that's why i didn't come to the exam.

i could be a lot nicer, and we can still be good friends until now.i had lost contact with you since we graduated from primary school, and the next thing i knew, you were not in a good condition. if only you are in front of me right now, ikhwan, i just wanna say : i'm sorry for everything, and that i miss you a lot.

AL-FATIHAH.ikhwan the blue tie : u looked sooo "chinese" ar.. lol.

p/s : omae wa watashi no hatsukoi. tatta, tatta hitotsu no koi. omg. siyesly najwa?? tabun ne..

Friday, January 23, 2009


last week we had bio experiment : digestive system. and we had to dissect the mice. poor fellow, like mr eric owez say XD.

the mice was very cute, but the tail was like sooo DEM thick and long, so basically that's what made the mice looked so menggelikan. there's this uncle, dunno who he was, probably the one who sold the mice, put ol those ratsie in this chamber with some cotton dipped into chloroform. so that the ratsie will 'sleep' for a while. lol.

and then we put the mice on a cutting board, spread the legs and pinned them. now here comes the torturing part. muaahaha. bella, my partner, took a forcep and pulled the skin to let me cut through using a scissors. and then after we spread out and pinned the skin, we cut another layer, huhu, so thrilled. then we saw the heart, and boy it's still beating. that's like super duper cool.

we slipped through the organs, the hardest part was to find the pancreas, cuz we know what it looked like, but dunno the color of it. so we thought it's the white one. but apparently the color is almost the same with the liver. so it's kinda confusing though.

wohoo. just like the scene in "SAW"

the big one on the bottom is actually caecum.

bella, it's not for lunch.

owh yeah, we accidentally cut the arteries. so the blood spilt all over. but we manage to cover it by using the cotton. like bella said, " lap peluh..". kekekek.

Saturday, January 17, 2009


to those who betrayed me.
thank you.

to those who pretended to be nice in front of me.
thank you.

to those who kept bitching about me to the others.
thank you.

to those who used me.
thank you.

to those who called me stupid.
thank you.

i couldn't say more. only GOD will repay your 'kindness'.

Friday, January 16, 2009

5 punches

1. eavesdropping.

is it a good or a bad thing?
well, too me it depends on the situation and the things being talked about.
i like eavesdropping >_<.

2. secrets.

it's not a wrong or bad thing to have secrets.
but i really hate it when someone have secrets that they don't wanna let me know, but they mentioned it in front of me. it's normal for a normal people to have curiosity. so, what are their intention actually? to make me feel left out? for not knowing their so-called-important-that-only-the-bitches-know secrets?

3. selfish.

they are a disgrace.

4. pretender.fake.

get a life. seriously. don't fool others with the innocent face. it's a big disgrace.

5. stealer.

steal friends. cuz they are so jealous that they want everything we have.

boycott the israelis



We will not go down (A song for Gaza) - Michael Heart

A blinding flash of white light
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight
People running for cover
Not knowing whether they’re dead or alive

They came with their tanks and their planes
With ravaging fiery flames
And nothing remains
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Women and children alike
Murdered and massacred night after night
While the so-called leaders of countries afar
Debated on who’s wrong or right

But their powerless words were in vain
And the bombs fell down like acid rain
But through the tears and the blood and the pain
You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

download song

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

tak bley cover dah


arienai kara~

muri dayou.. :((

i can't keep up with it any longer.

what to do lorh????

p/s : my body feels so warm lately. i thought i'd recovered from the fever. it's getting worst though. and, oh yeah, i'm waiting for muallaf to be screened in malaysia's cinema. hope the film can get through the stupid lembaga penapisan thing. wutta dumbass.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

otaku ja nai

what i did today:

-watch movies : 200 pounds beauty, my tutor friend, wild child.
-watch animes : seto no hanayome (cam x best je), one piece
-watch big bang and tvxq perf on u tube (kinda addicted, but not their fan la)
-went to kedai runcit kt depan cyberia : buy telur and roti and topups-on aainaa's request!!!
-talked to d phone : my mom, yana.
-chatting with 'orang sewel'. haha.
-still wondering when will i go to sleep since it's 2 o'clock oredy.
-............kekeringan idea on what to say anymore..

"peace home dawg!"-fred

Friday, January 2, 2009

akemashite omedeto gozaimassu

happy new year! or should i say maal hijrah..

erm. lots of things happened in 2008. whether good or bad things, none of it even matters right now. what i've been looking forward to is waiting in front of me.


here's my mission for this year. hope they'll work out somehow.
  1. make my own decision
  2. always think positive
  3. be more "baek"
  4. finish my animes and dramas (i know it sounds impossible)
  5. have more faith and patience
  6. throw away some of the sifat mazmumah (some, coz it's impossible to throw all of them)
  7. smile a lot (as in no more frowning face, moody day, except for the PMS thingy)
  8. like j-rock more!!!!!!!!!
  9. love and appreciate people more
  10. have more courage to tell others what i feel
i guess that's it.