death list

suddenly thought of this while 'reading' microbiology notes.

IN CASE IF I DIE :

- my password for emails is m**********. (it's in my phone, go get it)
- my password for laptop is taeyang.
- please don't delete the songs, videos and pictures in my laptop and cellphone because i love them to death. yes. TO DEATH.
- please don't throw away my cds. i earned them susah nak mati ouh -_-".
- you can throw my clothes. or wait, no. BURN THEM.
- now that you know my password, tell all my friends in facebook, friendster and ym about my death. and that i'm sorry. whatever the reason is.
- if you have time, sedekahkan al-fatihah/yassin for me. i would sincerely appreciate that.
- i love ********. there, i've said it. (it's not in my phone.HA-HA)
- to kak nanie : i'm sorry i was being such a jerk.
- and lastly, please forgive my mistakes and attitude. i can't help being such an asshole sometimes.

meleis

actually aku dah penat nak cakap pasal ni.

kenapa kan, manusia sekarang suka menunjuk2 yang dia ada secret. especially secret yang dia tak nak kamu tahu. dah namanya secret kan, yang kau make it so obvious tu kenapa? aku manusia. normal. aku ada curiosity. mestilah aku tertanya2, nak tahu apa secret tu. bukan la aku ni busy body, tapi aku tak suka dibiar tergantung. tak paham. terpinga2. so lain kali if you have something that you don't want to tell me, don't show it. ini nampak macam lagi samdol ada la.

huh. emo2. dah lama tak emo.

tadi tengok ju-on. sengal. tak takut tu satu hal. kelakar pulak dah hantu dia. storyline memang confuse, standard cerita jepun la kan. the ghosts are like, hurm, i dunno la. maybe sebab dah banyak cerita ju-on yang aku tengok, so aku dah immune dengan hantu2 dia.

lately sangat addicted dengan obefiend. suka troll the meleis. bagus2. to be honest i used to be one of this meleis. tapi lepas baca blog dia, terus tukar status. upgrade sikit. hehe. kool la obe. :D

ok. microbiology is waiting. as usual. and crap. haven't read anything for tomorrow's lab. -_-"

K-Rock

k-rock. tak ada beza sangat pun dengan k-pop. except yang diorang in a band, playing instrument. tapi tak rock pun. but ok la kalau nak layan.


TRAX




CN BLUE

bajet

susahnya orang ber'bajet' ni.

bajet bagus.
bajet cun.
bajet terer.
bajet kaya.
bajet kurus.
bajet diri gemuk walaupun skeding macam papan. anorexic. sick.

orang bajet sangat boleh bond dengan orang sama perangai dengan dia.
gila terbaeeeek.

mana2 aku pergi ada je orang bajet. it's like i am destined to live with them.

o lord, jauhkan aku daripada manusia2 bajet ini.
amin.

conflict

hari ni aku nak cakap pasal konflik.

aku dan microbes.

first day for microbes block : sangat stress. too much to handle. i like the workbook. seriously. aku suka buat exercises dalam tu. tapi aku tak suka hantar. leceh. aku buat kerja pun tak ikhlas. tak termasuk lagi dengan MCQ, mind map, scl. yang ni kene submit esok, yang tu kena pass up next week. ugh, tak ada yang lagi sistematik ke? i don't hate the lecturer. i never will. after all she's my mentor. but i wish she could be more.. em.. considerate?

aku dan manusia sosial.

sejak masuk cucms ni macam2 jenis mamalia aku jumpa. singa, gajah, badak, musang, biawak. macam zoo. setiap mamalia tu macam2 perangai. ada yang lidah bercabang, muka tembok, otak tembus, muka setengah masak tapi bajet cun, dan seumpamanya. and sometimes aku pun termasuk golongan2 itu (sometimes je ok). contoh paling senang:

case 1 : si manis.

jenab merupakan wanita yang diidami oleh 98.9% jejaka single mahupun mereka yang muka macam bapak orang. di kampungnya, dia dikenali dengan perangainya yang lemah lembut, sopan santun, bijak pandai, dan senyuman yang semanis aspartame. tapi hakikatnya, di luar dia tidak ada bezanya dengan minah2 kota pada waktu malam.

case 2 : si alim.

maimon terkenal dengan sifat alimnya. dia tidak pernah meninggalkan rumah tanpa baju yang menutup aurat, lengkap bertudung labuh ke lutut dan sarung kaki serta.. er.. ape tu.. handsock? tapi perangai : *sigh. minah clubbing pun tak ada sampai 3, 4 boyfriend dalam satu masa. erm, kes ni lebih kurang dengan case 1. bezanya case 1 minah tu lagi lawa, dan tak alim. dan minah tu ada 2 boyfriend je.

case 3 : si talam 2 muka.

among her friends, combi sangat baik. senyum tak pernah lekang, bijak, dan peramah. tapi bila balik rumah, perangai berpusing 360 darjah. totally opposite. pikir pasal diri : study, got A, then study, got A again. hal rumah? lain la kalau kau bawak orang gaji kan. tak kisahla dia tolong kemas. eish!!!

*disebabkan case 3 ni agak emo, so tak boleh continue. nanti TERbagitau cerita sebenar.

aku dan okaa-san.

aku jarang call mak aku. sebabnya aku tak tahu nak cakap apa. tiap2 kali dia call dia akan tanya benda yang sama, and jawapan aku pun sama. tak sampai seminit dah hang up.

aku dan cousin.

aku sendiri pun tak faham apa masalah antara kami.almost everyday jumpa tapi masing2 ego tak nak speak up. sampai bila nak jadi macam ni pun aku tak tahu.

aku dan aku.

kadang2 aku tak faham apa yang aku nak. aku rasa aku dah ada semua. tapi still lacking somewhere. and i don't know what that is. aku kata kat orang aku nak jadi psychiatrist. betul ke? or sebab aku tak minat jadik doktor bidang2 lain sebab melibatkan science, teknologi, bla bla bla..
yes, i took medical and yet i'm not interested in science. see? that's my conflict.


ok actually ada banyak lagi nak cerita tapi malas nak taip. sejak masuk alam microbes ni segala benda dah buat aku jadi malas.

new year's resolution

3rd day of 2010.

2010.

feels weird + awkward even when u type it.

anyway.

what happened in 2009?

• i got my driving license. but up until now i only drove a car 2 times...screw those people who don't trust me in handling cars.
• 1st year medic. hella tough one.
• i can count how many times i got angry... meaning i can control my temper kays..
• i lost my dad.
• i ATE VEGETABLES. yes people. VEGETABLES.
• i lost yasmin ahmad.
• my auntie still not getting married.
• still haven't change my glasses. shoot..
• read quran more often.
• gossip girl. says who?
• bought so many big bang cds.
• decided to become a psychiatrist.
• started jogging. HAH!
  

let's hope for a better year in 2010. new year's resolution? eat less. sleep less. play less. talk less. smile less. hate less. like less. yaoi less. everything is less.