bebelan

macam takde mood nak study petang ni.
tidur pun tak nak. otak lembab. kata prof hamdan.

bukak facebook. bosan.
friendster. macam nak tutup je akaun tu.
nak buat case study. habuk pun tak jumpa dalam antara-jaring (internet)
gosip dengan housemates. best.
ya allah. tambah lagi dosa aku hari ni.

semalam pergi low yatt. banyak benda nak beli.
printer. thumbdrive. printer.
duit tak cukup. simpan balik niat.
then singgah jusco beli barang.
ack~ habis 55 ringgit malaysia.
kfc chicky meal. around 10 ringgit malaysia.
stock makanan untuk sebulan. 30 ringgit malaysia.
sampai cyber. kemas barang. bukak laptop.
.......
bosan balik.
*sigh*

hari jumaat ni nak pergi pahang.
hajatnye.
tapi takut tak sempat siap assignment.
dah la final.
tch~sangat pening. dilemma.

sekarang still wondering nak tidur ke tak.
dah pukul 5.30. tak payah la najwa.
kau ni dah la cepat lupa.
tidur petang lagi la tak jalan otak tu.

bukak blog mamat ni. dengar lagu lenka.
macam best. nak download kejap lagi.
buat lagu senang tidur.

ok. case study tak siap lagi.
OFF.

a battle

just came back from home in kelantan.


*sigh*


where should i start..


i was shocked to see my dad. he looked so thin. badan macam tinggal rangka. i would mistook him for my tuk ayah (grandfather) you know. seriously. the whole body was like being burnt, due to the effect of radiotherapy.

i'm so sorry.

i'm sorry that i didn't go near you. it's because if i look at you, i will cry. and i don't want you to see me cry. cuz you will cry too. and when you cry, it will only burden you more. so that's why i can only see you from far. i felt guilty for doing that. i may seems heartless, but i'm battling inside as well. i'm considering about lots of things. it's not that i don't want to give my parents a call, but i just don't want to think about what happen. cuz if i do, i will cry, and cry, and cry. what can i get from crying? it won't solve my problem, nor it will cure my father. and i even cry right now while saying this.

may God forgive me. and may He brings back health to my father. Amiin.

final

esok final exam.

takut. nak jawab exam.

happy. nak balik rumah.

tapi macam ada yang tak kena.

hopefully nothing bad is going to happen.

fast updates

lama tak jenguk.
dah berhabuk rupanya.

hai.

like the title said, this is the fast updates from me:

1. currently in 1st year of medical studies. a tough year. sebab dah tak boleh nak berfoya-foya macam dulu. walaupun tadi baru saja berfoya-foya.
2. exam pertama dah lepas. agak shock sikit sebab baru kenal dengan format paper tu.
3. tempat tinggal pun agak shock. cun. tapi agak terpinggir dengan kemudahan awam.
4. oh ya. projek skodeng melalui tingkap yang aku rasa macam tak ada gunanya di situ. best. XD
5. kantoi skodeng. serious aku nak baling kamera canon gabak dia tu.
6. ayah dah boleh balik rumah. habis radioterapi. lega sikit.
7. H1N1
8. terpaksa batalkan niat nak pergi konsert. *sigh*
9. tahun ni ramai.. ??(terpaksa delete atas sebab2 tertentu)
10. ingat nak balik hari merdeka ni. tapi tiket habis. sedih.
11. kemungkinan akan dapat kereta kakak punya tak lama lagi.
12. rumah di cyberheights lagi mental daripada rumah di cyberia. manusia tak pernah bersyukur.
13. kolej pindah bangunan baru. agak grand la sikit.
    
14. orang rumah sebelah bajet cun. samdol. badigol.

ok. itu saja kot.

untitled

this blog will be closed temporarily.

or maybe permanently.

for how long? i don't know.

perhaps till i'm ready to be blogging again.

or maybe i won't be blogging anymore.

please don't ask me why.

thank you.

gadoh

filem yang sangat best. tapi sayang panggung tak terima.

aku tak nak cakap banyak. tengok dan nilai sendiri.

Synopsis

Gadoh tells a story of a group of teenagers who fought each other along racial lines; a cycle of hatred and violence further escalated by their environment and school system.

What was to be a quick resolution to improve the school’s bad image, was taken as an opportunity for one teacher who believed that real change was possible. She ropes in the help of an old friend and reluctant maverick theater activist for this arduous task.

Is there hope amidst the cycle of discrimination that surrounds us? Watch Gadoh for their story, and what it may very well tell us about ourselves.

Movie Info:

Duration: 70 mins
Director: Brenda Danker, Namron
Producer: Anna Har
Production Company: Big Pictures Productions
Supported by Pusat KOMAS
Starring: Namron, Nicholas Liew Davis, Zahiril Adzim, Amerul Affendi and Maya Tan Abdullah
Language: Bahasa Malaysia with English/BM subtitles
Poster design by: Alexdrina Chong, Lucid Design Collaborative Studio

Download links:

http://www.megaftp.com/39883
http://www.megaftp.com/39786
http://www.megaftp.com/39882

credit to ohartis.com

why america?

NOBODY english version by WONDER GIRLS



to be honest, it sounds kinda lame. and they could have done another MV for the english version, not dubbing with stupid voices and insert new shots in the old MV. and even with the english version, i still don't know what they're saying if there's no lyrics in front of me.

i don't understand why korean artist berlumba-lumba nak promote themselves in america. they look so desperate to me. it's not like i hate them for doing that, but when they're in US market, they are completely a different person. their music has been americanized. look at what US did to Se7en's "Girls" and Boa's "I Did It For Love". that is soo not korean.

the reason we cheer for korean artist is because of their music, which is unique. and because we're tired with american songs who's been talking about nothing but money, sex and so on.

and i hope JYP will make a new MV for "Tell Me". and WG needs to brush up their voices and accent as well.

WG Fighting!

and oh, some previews for their performance in JoBro's concert. seriously the crowd was so silent. were they dying or what? well, i guess they were trying to figure out what the hell was happening on the stage and who the heck were those bunch of weird-dance-movement-with-accent girls..

I'M JUST SAYING.

fear

Multiple myeloma also known as MM, myeloma, plasma cell myeloma, or as Kahler's disease is a cancer of plasma cells. These immune cells are formed in bone marrow, are numerous in lymphatics and produce antibodies. Myeloma is incurable, but remissions may be induced with steroids, chemotherapy, thalidomide and stem cell transplants. Median survival is 3 years, but the introduction of novel treatments in the last decade have improved this prognosis to 50–55 months. Chromosome diagnosis can separate patients into more or less favorable prognoses. Myeloma is part of the broad group of diseases called hematological malignancies.

Hypercalcaemia is an elevated calcium level in the blood. It can be an asymptomatic laboratory finding, but because an elevated calcium level is often indicative of other diseases, a diagnosis should be undertaken if it persists. It can be due to excessive skeletal calcium release, increased intestinal calcium absorption, or decreased renal calcium excretion.




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btw, i passed the driving test. not much of a news anyway considering the fact that my dad probably had not improve so well. i can deal with hypercalcaemia, but certainly push aside the possibility of getting multiple myeloma case.