HIKARI

So Malaysian

2011-01-24T11:47:00.003+08:00

if it applies to u, then you are SO MALAYSIAN

time skolah klau bdak perempuan mesti gi toilet 5 kali sehari nak betulkan tudung/rambut.pastu skali pegi 3-4 org
bila mls cr brg mst ckp "mak takde pun!" "kau mak naik mak jumpe, siap kau!" "dah jumpaaaaaaaaaaa!!"
dulu nak sgt habis skola. dah habis skola sebok ckp ckp rindu skola.
Buat karangan tapi terikut bahasa komik
Bila lepak ramai2 semua pegang phone + ipad. Serupa tak payah lepak
Duduk kat Kampung Pisang, Kampung Tembikai tapi dalam facebook cakap duduk kat Kuala Lumpur
Pakai baju Polo tiruan, kolar naik atas
Eraser panggil rubber
"Warghh, aku dah gemok!!". "Bape kilo skrg?". "50kg". "Dulu?". "49kg".
Selalu berangan, "Dah keje nanti, aku nak kumpul duit, pegi Korea".
Nama pelakon Korea hafal, nama menteri kabinet haram tak kenal
Minat sgt cite Korea, fahamnya tidak
Ikut duty roster kena sapu sampah, tapi x pernah buat
Dalam kelas mesti nak duduk bawah kipas
Mak marah suruh study. Masuk bilik buat2 study tapi baca komik.
Mengajuk cakap cikgu kalau tak suka dia
"Jemput makan...". Padahal ajak2 ayam je
Luka la kat mane2 pun, skit ke, trok ke, sume.. "Ltak minyak gamat!"
buat kapal terbang kertas pastu tiup kat blakang baru baling terbangkan...
Kat kedai buah, "Nak rasa boleh?". Lepas rasa tak beli.
Sikit2 tekan Info kat remote Astro
"Kalau lambat mak tinggal". Tapi mak x pernah tinggalkan pun.
Tukar channel Astro setiap 5 minit.
Main pusing2 pen/pensil kat ibu jari
"Kpd Yg Berbahagia, Tuan Pengetua, Yg Dihormati, Penolong Kanan"... Ahhh...bosan...
Tak reti pakai kain batik
Bila weekend, pukul 2 petang baru nak mandi
Masukkan lead pensil tekan2 dari bawah
Kat Giant/Tesco, bila mak ayah x nampak, letak barang yg kita suka dalam troli
Gosok gigi pagi2 mesti ada bunyi "Uwek..uwek.." mcm nak muntah
Belum tau result PMR/SPM dah mintak macam2 dgn mak ayah
Mintak maaf dgn mak ayah time raya je. Menangis bagai. Hari esoknya melawan lagi.
We call it Pampers even it's Huggies, Drypers etc
pergi KLCC or Pavi beli tshirt Zara or Topman.then tangkap gambar paperbag post kat FB.ramai dah buat camtu
Sit near starbucks just to 'borrow' the wifi
Don't care its Mamee, Cintan etc, we still call it Maggi
We use n say Colgate, even though it is Darlie or Fresh & White.
When shopping for groceries, its either Giant or Tesco
Se~~la~~mat~~ pa~~gi~~ cik~~guu . tak pernah pon ucap dgn pantas.
time perhimpunan sekolah rendah, masa beratur cikgu mesti kata "angkat, jatuh, angkat, jatuh, jatuh, angkat"
Pergi toilet nak kena berteman
lepas mkn gula2 suka selit sampah kt lubang2 yg kecik, pastu wt muka bodo n x bersalah
Makan nasi lauk Sardin pun sedap
telur goreng makan dengan kicap..
"Makcik, nanti sambal kasi lebih ye". Suruh bayar lebih tau pulak marah.
Pergi genting je, tapi pakai macam nak pergi kutub utara.
Berlagak bwk kereta time amik result spm
Kelam kabut x senang duduk bila org kata "Tudung kau senget la"
Air dah habis. Main gigit2 ais pulak
bila sorg laki nk try awek, awal2 msg msti, "u msg2 I ni, bf u x mrh ke??" padahal dah tau awek tu single
Bila Kelas tgh bising then ade budak ckp "wei ada guru besar lalu!" semua cpt2 duduk tmpat masing2 & bukak buku.
"Wei, dia kem salam kt ko". "Ah, benci, aku x minat ah dia". Padahal dlm hati excited gile
Favourite Aiskrim Malaysia Seposen masa kecil - Aiskrim Milo dan Aiskrim Asam Boi
Pegi rumah org then org tu nak pegi buat air mula lah ckp "tak payah lah susah2.." tp dlm hati "hmm bagus gak kering tekak ni"
Depan member kutuk2 justin bieber, balik rumah tengok YouTube lagu "Baby...baby..baby oohh" siap ulang2.
Pergi Ikea tapi tak beli apa2 sbb xde duit
Drink Vitagen little by little, afraid it finished fast
masa kahwin masuk nona, bila dah cerai masuk melodi
When we don't have money, we eat Maggi
Still prefer Gardenia bread above all
klau tgk cite melayu n ade subtitle english pn mesti nk baca gak
'assalamualaikum, tak jawap berdosa' pickup line paling hampeh nak mengorat awek

banyak lagi lah. malas nk taruk sini.

yakusoku

2010-12-24T00:01:00.002+08:00

istiqamah.

aku tak ada benda ni.

macam2 aku dah buat. susah betul nak dapat. sebab tu banyak perangai buruk yang masih tak berubah.

rasa malu. dengan tuhan. dengan malaikat yang tengah catit kiri kanan. eh tak. belah kiri je.

dan rasa malu dengan diri sendiri.

rasa macam nak kena rujuk dengan yang pakar. gila kronik bunyinya -_-".

24 disember/desember 2010 (aku selalu konfius dengan ejaan bulan 12 dalam BM).

apa hadiah yang aku bagi kali terakhir?

...

tak ada. cuma ucapan semata-mata. itu pun kira satu kemajuan. sebab sebelum ni sekadar ucapan dalam sms. tapi hari tu cakap dalam telefon.

...

dad, what do u want for this year's birthday?

me as a good person? i wish i can give u that.

but right now is quite impossible. because i just lost to satan just now.
yes. shame on me.

erm, ok. how about this dad.

this year, i want a wish instead. although it's your birthday.

i wish for u to always watching over me.
to remind me when i'm lost.
to give me strength when i'm giving up on life.
to forgive me, though i don't deserve to ask for it.
to wish me for every happiness. so that i can stop being an ass.

tanjoubi omedeto. it's unfortunate that u missed ur 56th birthday.

i wish nothing but peace for u in there. and i will, insyaALLAH, to not forget reciting yasin for u every friday. (but tonight cannot lah, girl's thing)

aitai.

coming out of the closet

2010-12-19T19:12:00.006+08:00

aku tak ada masalah dengan status seksual dia. because i believe dia tak memilih untuk jadi gay ever since he was born. and unfortunate for him sebab timbul perasaan macam tu dalam hati dia.

oke.

tapi aku ada masalah bila dia announce satu dunia. encik, kau tak fikir keluarga ke? selfish.

unless kau hidup sebatang kara. or family kau support confession kau kat skrin petak tu. then suka hati kau lah.

kawan sampai mati.

2010-12-09T18:57:00.003+08:00

haaaaahh..

esok final exam. tapi macam biasa buat rilek je haha.

anyway.

selalu kan, kalau aku usha2 profile orang ke, baca post kat blog dia ke, akan ada part yang cakap camni :

hi.

saya si polan si polan.

i'm a simple girl/boy. sometimes boring.

i don't like orang hipokrit, penipu, tak beriman, mulut bising, sombong, berfikiran sempit, suka tengok cerita adnan sempit blablabla.

hmm.. dulu aku pun pernah tulis benda2 alah ni. tapi bila pikir2 balik kan, bagus sangat ke kau tu sampai nak memilih2 orang ni. perfek sangat ke kau tu yang kau nak letak golongan2 yang kau sebut tu kat bawah kaki kau.

bagi aku la, perangai manusia ni berubah2. sekejap kau jadi baik, sekejap kau jadi setan.

sekejap iman kau naik mengalahkan imam muda, sekejap kau jadi tak ubah macam kutu langau tepi jalan.

so kalau kau dah dapat kawan yang kononnya ideal, yang tak termasuk dalam list2 kau tu, kau jamin ke yang he or she won't turn into one of those scums?

lepas tu bila dia jadi macam tu, kau nak putus kawan? sebab tak memenuhi syarat2 teman sejati kau?

murahnya istilah kawan tu kan.

orang kata kawan nak buat lepak, nak gelak2, berduyun2 datang. tapi bila kau dapat ujian daripada tuhan sikit je, semuanya lesap macam pelesit.

aku tak pernah argue about this, never even slightest i took it lightly. sebab aku tau benda ni betul. dah ketepek atas muka banyak kali dah. sebab tu aku tak pernah expect too much from anyone. aku kawan sama rata. tak ada yang kamcing gila2. sebab aku jenis yang cepat kecewa kalau pasal relationship. istilah backstabber tu dah lali aku dengar kat mana2.

tapi bukan la maksudnya aku tak percaya orang. i'm just trying to be careful. at least for now.

ramai orang tak boleh hidup tanpa kawan. betul ke? apa istilah kawan tu sebenarnya?

aku rasa majoriti orang perlukan teman. bukan kawan.

teman ialah someone yang kau perlu sentiasa ada untuk make sure kau tak jadi lone ranger. kau perlukan teman nak pergi tengok wayang. nak pergi makan. buat assignments. gosip. lepak. tidur lambak.

tapi kawan, tak semestinya perlu buat semua tu. dia tak perlu ada dekat dengan kau pun. dia hanya perlu dengar. share opinion. bagi nasihat.

eh, macam kaunselor je? aa..lebih kurang la kot.

so hakikatnya aku sendiri pun tak tau istilah sebenar kawan tu. setiap orang lain2 kot perception dia.

tapi bagi aku, kalau boleh jumpa kan, kalau aku layak kan, aku tak mintak lebih pun dari orang tu.

cukup kalau dia boleh sentiasa ingatkan aku yang hidup kat dunia ni sekejap je.

cuba untuk berpijak di bumi yang nyata

2010-11-24T16:57:00.002+08:00

what the hell happened the last 18 and a half years of my life?

jawapan standard

2010-11-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

"Rebecca Nur Islam hanya nama yang diberi oleh ayah saya sejak dilahirkan"

"kenapa saya nak menutup aurat sedangkan itu bukan saya"

"alhamdulillah family saya support saya"

"mungkin satu hari nanti saya pakai tudung"

akak. baik tak payah bukak mulut. serious.

are we that ignorant?

2010-11-15T21:15:00.005+08:00

dah tak mampu nak kutuk. cuma mintak Tuhan tak jadikan aku dan keturunanku macam mereka.

sajak emo

2010-11-07T10:45:00.001+08:00

tuding jari pada Tuhan

credit to cursingmalay

Ada orang kata,

Bila kita sakit,

Itu tanda Tuhan sayang,

Dia nak ingatkan kita.

Ada juga orang kata,

Bila negara kena timpa bala,

Tu tanda Tuhan sayang kat negara,

Mungkin dah lama sangat lupa dia.

Memang senang nak kata,

Bila ada bencana,

Ramai tunjuk jari kat Tuhan,

Kata tu semua Tuhan punya kuasa.

Tuhan punya kuasa,

Cipta dunia,cipta kita,

Serba serbi lengkap tercipta,

Tak ada benda yang tak sempurna.

Tuding jari kata Tuhan punya kerja,

Bagi turun bala,turun bencana,

Memanglah Tuhan bagi turun bala,

Kau ubah dunia Dia buat apa?

Sungai dah elok-elok ada,

Kau pusing ke arah lain,

Tanah dah elok ada,

Kau korek buat tasik.

Tuhan dah cipta dunia,

Lengkap sempurna,

Kau pegi ubah kenapa?

Sebab Tuhan ke kau ditimpa bala?

Kenapa tak tanya diri sendiri,

Habis tanah semua terokai,

Asalkan duit ke poket sendiri,

Bila banjir kata kuasa semulajadi.

Kepala hotak kau kuasa semulajadi.

Kau dah lupa Tuhan dah cipta dunia sempurna hakiki?

Semua benda mesti ada sebab terjadi,

Tak kisahlah banjir atau gunung berapi.

Semua benda kata bencana semulajadi,,

Apa yang semulajadi kalau air sungai tak berlalu pergi?

Tak malu ke kita manusia ciptaan,

Setiap masa,kena bencana,tuding jari,salahkan Tuhan?

manusia gila

2010-10-24T21:38:00.006+08:00

susah kalau niat baik dipersetankan.

pernah tak, bila kau nak tolong orang tu, niat kau baik, tapi kau pulak dianiaya.

orang tu buat salah, jadi kau nak betulkan dia. tapi yang silapnya cara kau salah. tapi tu sebab kau tak tau nak buat apa. duduk diam tak boleh. nak buat sesuatu pun dungu fikiran.

alih-alih kau berdepan dengan dia. orang lain pun masuk campur. tapi dia buat muka tak bersalah. dikatakan kau menuduh dia. memfitnah dia. tanpa sebarang bukti. ya, memang kau tak ada bukti. tapi kau yakin 100% dengan apa yang kau percaya. dan dia pun sebenarnya tak membuktikan yang kau tu salah. malah dia cuba putarbelitkan keadaan. menjadikan kau seorang yang sangat jahat di mata orang lain. dan dia, menangis menagih simpati. yang kononnya dia tak tahu apa-apa.

jadi dalam situasi itu, kau kalah. dia menang. di mata orang lain.
walaupun hakikatnya akhirat nanti kau menang. dia yang tanggung dosa.

hipokritnya manusia.

kepada engkau. ya, engkau. aku tau aku akan berdosa dengan apa yang aku akan cakap ni. dengan orang lain aku boleh nak consider, tapi dengan kau beb, adalah satu exception, yang mana :

AKU TAK AKAN MAAFKAN KAU SAMPAI AKHIRAT ATAS APA YANG KAU BUAT KAT AKU DAN KAWAN AKU. KERANA KAU MANUSIA YANG PALING DAJAL PERNAH AKU JUMPA.

dan "because i'm a good hacker" adalah statement paling gay pernah aku dengar.

tak boleh tidur

2010-10-17T23:15:00.001+08:00

YE SAYA DAH LAMA TAHU YANG SAYA SANGAT EGO.

so jangan hentam saya. tapi cuba ubah saya.

oke?

RIDIC

2010-10-16T15:15:00.003+08:00

kadang2 bila naik kereta ke, bas ke, aku selalu imagine what happen kalau kereta ni crash? it's like, i want that accident to happen. i want to experience how does it feels like. it may sounds crazy since i'm asking for death, tapi.. aa.. tu lah. i don't even know why. perhaps my life has been dull and boring lately so i want that kind of incident to happen, see whether it changes my life somehow.

o well, kalau dah accident then patah sana sini of course la life berubah kan. mati terus langsung la habis life tu.

p/s : may God bless the souls involved in 10.10.10 tragedy.

old school

2010-10-04T23:39:00.001+08:00

suddenly teringat Aerosmith.

and Bon Jovi

conspiracy

2010-10-03T17:52:00.001+08:00

recently my friend asked me whether i know about illuminati. that topic has been around i dunno since when, tapi jadi hot topic especially bila TV3 raya commercial came out. oh and before that illuminati was mentioned to be related with Anugerah Juara Lagu, and even Hujan's frontman Noh. and then there's this thing about Lady Gaga sembah setan and etc. i mean yang tu kalau dia tak relate ngan illuminati pun aku macam percaya jugak..

i don't know much about illuminati, but i do know a lil bit about freemason, thanks to Mastika. on a side note, people kept bashing Mastika, or whoever that read one, but i think not all of the contents are nonsense. there are a lot of things in it yang we don't even know, well prolly because we are ignorant about world issue. if it's not because of Mastika, i didn't even know about Mona Fandey, Idi Amin, and Freemason.

i'm not saying that i don't believe in all the theories surrounding it, i just, don't bother so much to actually debate about it in blogs or newspaper. perhaps it's true, but what annoys me the most is that people give so much attention to this matter, where in fact benda2 yang dah terang tang tang salah and 'against' humanity tak pulak nak dilaung, dijerit, diadilkan. issue racism yang dah berkulat tu tak ada pulak approach from gov. kalau setakat 1malaysia tu nenek aku pun boleh buat proposal.

we are all actually a hypocrite, even myself. we said we're not racist, we condemned racism, tapi bila ada orang buat salah sikit, first thing yang we mentioned would be their race. even among us, berapa kerat je member from outside our race that we have. when i said member, i meant real bestie punya. bukan classmate. bukan neighbor. bukan lecturer. bukan someone we know.

i think one of the ways yang gov boleh consider, is that kita wajibkan (kot) for all students to learn other's language. i mean, now all people tahu at least speak malay and english. but what about chinese and tamil? kadang2 aku rasa agak suspicious bila dengar other chinese/indian spoke in their language in front of me. bukan la aku nak kata diorang tak ada kerja lain nak kutuk2, tapi..aa..pokoknya macam tu lah. paham la kan.

erm, ape ni. nak cakap pasal illuminati tapi melencong kat racism pulak.

illuminati. entah. baca la sendiri. aku pun malas nak selidik. GIT pun tak habis baca lagi ini pulak nak kaji benda alah ni.

oh anyway i found this in salafus solih punya blog. best la jugak blog dia. bila baca banyak yang ketepek kat atas dahi. theory ni agak menarik. nak percaya ke tak tu.. up to u lah.

EPIK HIGH

2010-10-02T15:37:00.001+08:00

despite all the bad news surrounding Tablo, i still WORSHIP their music. who cares if he didn't go to Stanford like he claimed? so he's a con. so what. that doesn't change the fact that he wrote the lyrics, composed the music, and even spoke perfect english when he got interviewed by CNN. CNN for god sake.

people are jealous of him too much. and Mithra and Tukutz are not there by his side just when he needed them the most. and honestly i won't be that surprised if Tablo commit suicide. not that i want it to happen, but with all the pressure on him and his family, even Einstein will be depressed.

some of EPIK HIGH's songs from their latest album Epilogue.

Over

You are an overacheiver, do what it takes till it takes everything you are.
Want a break from the world but the world wanna break you.
The weight makes your backbone curl up and ache you.

[Tablo's Verse]
Got so much to prove, hopin' they approve. The only thing that's true is all you ever do is do. You're movin' shoe to shoe but you're not goin'. You stop growin' the moment that you stay at the top. The only way is to drop, free-fallin down the stairs that you climbed up, lined up to freely mount the air.

But you dare not airdrop, tied up like a hairknot, hikin' down without a chance of steppin' on a fair rock. And so, you stand still in a standstill. Hands still buildin' castles on a sandhill. 'Man, chill...' is what your friends say, but you're not hearin' what little men say. Anyway. Keep on goin' and taste the stars. Keep on growin' and raise the bar. You're livin' life for the A's down to the Z's. After the hill, you've got a mountain to seize.

Who can tell? Your living is an organized hell. The mansion of your mind, just an oversized cell. The pressure... everything is done to a measure. In the sea of competition sunk like a treasure. Like a feather fallin' slow spralin' to the floor. Strung up like a broken violin to your course. Opportunity is knockin' at your door but you never left a welcome mat. It doesn't matter anymore. Or anyhow, but you're too late to turn back. Fate pushin' you into the wall like a thumbtack. Ain't no comebacks in this game of life. Roll the dice again. Roll it once, never twice. Keep on goin' and taste the stars. Keep on growin' and raise the bar. You're livin' life for the A's down to the Z's. After one drop, you've got a fountain to seize.

RUN

Run, run, run away....
Run, run, run away....
Run, run, run away....
No matter how much I run (I can’t escape from it).
Run, run, runaway.
If I look back while running (You’re still there).

[Mithra's Verse]

It's pitch dark.
The world moves on too fast.
I’m the only one who’s limping on both legs.
The path I must walk is endless.
What’s at the end of this path?
Are you going there knowing about it?
Will I learn the answers if I go there with my eyes closed?
The sky that never responds to a such question.
The two arms tied up by daily life are too heavy to embrace dreams.
I'm scared, I've been abandoned locked away.Just for today run somewhere like your crazy.

[Bridge]

Run till you can touch the sky with your hands.
Run till your heart is filled with your dreams.

Everybody run, run, run away…
No matter how much I run (I can’t escape from it).
Everybody run, run, runaway…
If I look back while running (You’re still there).

You got me runnin' runnin' runnin' around.
Down, down, down.

You got me runnin' runnin' runnin' around.
Down, down, down.

You got me runnin' runnin' runnin' around.
Down, down, down.
Away...

No matter how much I run, I’m still on the same spot.

[Tablo's Verse]

My life is a rainy night that rains 365 days.
A heart that gets smaller every 24 hours.
I even hid the small comma and its tail,then the future that awaits me becomes a period...
Carry the new day on your shoulder and run.
What am I running towards?
Whether if the sun’s setting or I if I’m losing…
I don’t know.
But I go.
Keep on runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ high.
I'm the young star that has been abandoned by the galaxy.

[Bridge]

Run till you can touch the sky with your hands.
Run till your heart is filled with your dreams.

Everybody run, run, run away…No matter how much I run (I can’t escape from it).
Everybody run, run, runaway…
If I look back while running (You’re still there).

You got me runnin' runnin' runnin' around.
Down, down, down.

You got me runnin' runnin' runnin' around.
Down, down, down.

You got me runnin' runnin' runnin' around.
Down, down, down.
Away...

No matter how much I run, I’m still on the same spot.

You got me runnin' runnin' runnin' around.Down, down, down.

You got me runnin' runnin' runnin' around.
Down, down, down.

You got me runnin' runnin' runnin' around.Down, down, down.
Away...

For you, who’s running endlessly.

p/s: so k-netizens, you're telling that he didn't wrote these too?

Tablo : I DID GO TO STANFORD BITCHESSSSSSS

jpop mania

2010-07-07T21:36:00.002+08:00

Aizdean just released new single,”I Need You Baby / ONE”.

To people who didnt know Aizdeen. Aizdeen is the first Malaysian to become Jpop singer in Japan!

Name: Aizdean
Birthday: February 13
Birthplace: Malaysia
Blood Type: O

Album

[2010.03.03] Hadiah ~The First Step~

Singles

[2009.07.07] I Need You Baby/ONE
[2009.08.31] I Need You Baby A Cry Out of The Soul
[2009.12.16] Don’t Go Away/Yell Won’t Let You Go?

gila kool en? his voice is ok, but the thing is he got guts. i mean, who are we kidding? japan has a huge market. took quite a hard work for someone to fit in those society. let alone be in their music industry. he may not be as huge as gackt, or hyde, or even morning musume. but this guy proved that you don't need a cute face, hot chocolate abs, or even reality show like AF, malaysian idol or whatsoever to be this huge. hard work is not enough. you need guts. and faith.

B2ST

2010-06-29T23:13:00.003+08:00

aku : bella, ni baru B2ST. kalau Big Bang??
bella : .....
aku : TOP!!!!!!!!
bella : T_T

fanservice

2010-06-28T16:47:00.001+08:00

if u don't fall for this, then u are...erm..i dunno what to call u lah.

but it's certainly ridiculous if u think THIS IS NOT CUTE DEMMIT waaaaahhh

WTF moment

2010-06-26T22:02:00.002+08:00

tangan menggeletar. hati berdebar. panas.

sebab apa? bengang. nak marah. tak puas hati.

kau dah busted dah. segala rahsia dah pecah.
tapi berlagak macam almighty gila.
macam you own the world.
macam.. ahh.. bodoh rasanya.

aku rasa sangat frust sebab tak boleh find solution pasal masalah tu. aku nak jaga aib orang tu, but at the same time aku tak nak orang ni dibutakan.

susah kan. niat yang baik diperlekehkan. disampahkan.

kau. boleh blah.

one ok rock

2010-06-19T21:26:00.001+08:00

new craze~

ONE OK ROCK <--- nama tak boleh lagi pelik ke?

prof parodies

2010-06-19T00:36:00.001+08:00

terbaek :)

XXY

2010-06-17T08:46:00.001+08:00

check out this guy.

Nick Pitera

complete package

2010-06-12T18:18:00.003+08:00

pretty.
tall.
s-line figure.
mad dancing skill.
humble.
bubbly.
killer voice.
badazz rapper.
beyonce. =p

Kahi unnie saranghae <3

badazzz

2010-06-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

O MAH GAADDD

i can't help but the hid my face with the shirt and tried hard not to listen to what he said because it's too AWKWARD...............

rain :

they told me i was nominated for the BADAZZZ star.

*ready for awkward moment*

yeah, i've been working out.

...

waddehell???

we still love ya rain.
just, try not to open your mouth. just stand there and look good.
yeah. that's all you gotta do.
okie? ^_^

this is what happened when there's too much to handle

2010-06-07T06:28:00.003+08:00

* click on the picas untuk tatapan yang sangaaaaaatt memuaskan. :D

rally

2010-06-05T15:02:00.006+08:00

2:15 DSAI : JANGAN TOLAK SAYA!

kekeke

and also at 3:07 some random reporter : Datuk please speak louder!

haha. tergelak je.

nasib baik aku tak pergi. asalnya plan nak pergi. konon2 nak la experience macam ni.
but looking at the footage, man, aku rasa awal2 lagi aku dah pengsan kat tengah jalan kekurangan oksigen. tapi nampak best gila. serious. semangaaatt!!! hehe.

tapi aku tak suka bila benda ni dipolitikkan. cuba balik kepada niat asal.

nak tolong umat palestin kan? so stick to that.

Park Bom the chubby bunny who likes bread and corn =p

2010-06-05T08:16:00.002+08:00

and she's too underrated :(

jigsaw

2010-05-14T18:23:00.003+08:00

manusia cepat melatah.
cepat melenting.
cepat menuduh.
cepat mencarut.

tak pernah nak fikir dulu.
kenapa.
bagaimana.
bila.
siapa.

pengajaran untuk aku jugak.

*****************

cerita 1

pihak atasan kolej aku decide nak turunkan pointer admission to MBBS from 3.2 to 3.0. batch sebelum kitorang 3.0. so basically we're like some kind of bahan eksperimen. i have no idea why they decided to do that. yang aku tahu batch junior banyak tak lepas 3.0.

first thing in my mind, whoever made that decision sangat unfair. imagine most of my previous batchmates who had to repeat and paid thousands of money just to reach 3.2. and bila dah repeat, still tak lepas, ada ngam2 3.19, had to go to other university like egypt, indon, etc. so knowing about the news, siapa tak melenting? menuduh? mencarut?

manusia.

on the other side,

....

*diam* (kering idea nak backup guna modal apa)

on the other side, mungkin la ada hikmahnya mereka buat macam tu. maybe there's a catch in it. like, dia buat syllabus baru yang lagi susah daripada yang sedia ada susah ni. and maybe the exam is going to be extremely difficult. so, yeah who knows kan.

cerita 2

nama yang selalu keluar paper lately.
aminulrasyid.

oh, tak. bukan selebriti. orang biasa.
macam aku.macam kau.

arwah naik kereta tanpa lesen, noted umur 15 tahun. terlanggar kereta orang. takut. cabut. geng bike kejar. terlanggar kereta. selamat. terpintas kereta polis. siren naik. insiden kejar-mengejar. polis tembak. kena tayar. polis tembak. kena kepala. mati. rakan sebelah keluar daripada kereta. diterajang polis. kawan lari. polis buat statement. arwah penyamun. penjenayah. masyarakat tak puas hati. bangkang polis. kutuk. hina. cemuh. polis tak mengaku bersalah. refused to apologize.

manusia.

oke. mana satu yang kau nak dengar?

polis babi ar!! ade ke patot gi tembak sesuke hati?? die budak lagi tuu. mesti la die takot bile langgar keta orang. yang polis nak tembak membabi buta ape kes?? die bukannye pegang senjata. bukannya nak cederakan orang lain. budak tu baik..kesian siott...

atau,

korang ni..pikir ar..dah budak tu dalam keadaan mencurigakan..mesti la polis tu kejar..dah tu dalam keadaan panik, mesti la tak ley pokes, walopon dah trained, nak tunggu tembak kaki memang tak ar kan dah budak tu duk lam keta. sat gi kang tetibe gi langgar nenek ke, rempuh shopping mall sampai jatuh eskalator tingkat bawah hempap orang, then baru nak tembak?

i have no say in it. you be the judge. you're human. not a pig. you can differentiate between good and bad. rice and mee. arch of aorta and thoracic aorta. no?

cerita 3

fairuzizuan menunjukkan prestasi permainan yang sangat dull. "penyokong" marah. bengang maki hamun. fairuzizuan felt disturbed but held in. one of the "penyokong" provoked him. fairuzizuan naik hantu. meluru ke arah penonton. penonton + "penyokong" boo.

manusia.

the difference between orang kita dan orang lain :

orang lain : bila pemain tengah beraksi, orang lain diam. fokus. bila pemain menang, baru orang lain sorak. bila pemain kalah, orang lain frust, tapi keep it cool and tepuk tangan, because the player had done their best.

orang kita : bila pemain menang, orang kita sorak gila-gila. arak satu kampung, bagi duit beratus ribu, bagi pangkat datuk, opah, moyang segala. bila pemain kalah, REJAM.

kesimpulannya :

jadi manusia ni penat.

nak jadi gomu ningen (budak getah) la pulak. macam Luffy <3

p/s : ningen ha yokubukaku, nani mo gisei ni sezu ni, atae mo shinai kuseni, hitsuyou ijou ni hojigaru

jangan lupa lirik!

2010-04-18T14:39:00.004+08:00

GOMEN!!

hahaha comel :)

al-asr

2010-04-10T22:03:00.002+08:00

sekarang tengah cuba nak :

banyakkan spend time untuk study.
kurangkan bergosip/dengar gosip/ digosip.
kurangkan perasaan benci. marah.
banyakbanyakbanyakbanyakkan makan sayur+jogging.
potong masa untuk internet.
seeeeenyuuuuuummmmm.
berjimatcermat.
sabar. sabar. sabar.
baca quran banyak2 kali.
ikhlas in whatever i'm doing.
maafkan mereka. maafkan diri sendiri.
jadi orang baik.

sebab masa aku dah tak banyak.

......

masa kau pun, kan?

racist much?

2010-03-31T11:05:00.006+08:00

IBRAHIM ALI THE SHIT TALKER

bloody crap man. this guy is effing douchebag. how can he talk shit like that. i never felt so embarrassed like this for being a malay. n yeah this is the kind of thing that you'll never get to see in utusan melayu, berita harian, buletin utama, metro, blablabla because in the end you'll end up in ISA. scumbag. and now you can sue me because i'll be charged with having some humanity and a clear state of mind. unlike these morons.

credit : cursingmalay.blogspot.com

suju

2010-03-21T09:50:00.002+08:00

da lama gileee tak post. malas. haha.

kadang2 rasa macam nak delete je blog ni.
kesian. terbiar.

anyway.

few updates :

hari tu beli tiket Super Junior Super Show. i'm not really into them, just nak teman member. then suddenly rasa tak nak pergi, so aku jual la tiket tu. konsert tu semalam. jealous pun ada jugak. tapi aku demam. so maybe tuhan nak bagi hikmah kat situ la kan. lagipun next week exam. bagus la aku tak pergi.
we're in endocrine system block. sangat best. serious. first time (after behavioural science) aku rasa betul2 enjoy belajar. thanks to prof hamdan :D
next week cuti. nak baliiiiiiiiikkkkk. sangat sangat sangat lama aku tak balik. raya cina hari tu pun aku tak balik. aku rindu katil je. hehe.
tengah berusaha nak kurangkan perkara2 yang tak baik.
tengah berusaha untuk tidak jadi hipokrit. susah gila kan?
.........

m gonna study hard after this

2010-02-28T09:21:00.002+08:00

omaigod.

semalam mimpi ayah.

like seriously shit.

dah seminggu aku tak mimpi apa2. then yesterday i went jogging. then teringat pasal exam. i was scared. scared i'm gonna have to repeat. then i'll disappoint him. so last night aku study. i slept at 11 something. sebab nak bangun awal esok. bila bangun pukul 5 pagi, aku study sampai pukul 7, then i felt sleepy (blame the hot milo for it). so i went to bed, kunci jam pukul 7.30. sepanjang half an hour that i slept tulah, aku mimpi.

i was in this office, tak tahu la office apa kan. suddenly i saw a man walking towards me. belakang dia cerah, so aku tak nampak muka dia. bila makin dekat, i was like, shit. that's my dad. gila terkejut. dia pegang tangan aku nak salam, it's the salam yang perempuan buat dengan perempuan tu, you know. yang cium pipi thingy. then when u do that your bahu will tersentuh kan? so when he was trying to do that, time bahu nak tersentuh tu tiba2 he let go of my hand and walked away. i was like, HUH?

then he entered this room yang ada family aku. i thought diorang tak nampak dia. but he went to my sister and did the same thing; took her hand, trying to salam but when the shoulders nak met he stopped and went to my other sister. and i was convinced that they all saw him, but they didn't say anything.

and no. he didn't wear any white shirt with the kopiah and all. it's just a plain kemeja. the one yang warna hijau biru, the one that i recognized since he always wore that whenever there's a ceremony.

then i woke up. i stared to the ceiling. and i thanked God. i'm not sure whether i should be happy or not about this, since i couldn't figure out the meaning of the whole salam thingy. because it's so weird and awkward.

i'm just guessing though but i think he's trying to say that

HE'LL KILL ME IF I FAIL THE EXAM.

kot.

benci

2010-02-23T21:34:00.002+08:00

lately selalu teringat ayah.

bila nak tidur.

bila tengah gelak2.

bila fail exam.

bila cakap pasal ayah orang lain.

bila teringat rumah.

bila dengar lagu p ramlee.

bila tengok kereta volvo.

lepas tu nangis. menyesal. tak sudah2.

ya. aku tahu. yang dah lepas tu lepas. orang mati tak hidup balik.

aku tahu.

maybe habit kot. suka teringat orang yang dah tak ada.

masa hidup dulu tak pernah pun nak appreciate.

rasa macam nak pergi somewhere. jauh. sorang2. nak muhasabah diri.

hate this.

#1 : my thoughts on..

2010-02-03T21:16:00.005+08:00

Go Mi Nam - You're Beautiful

PENGKID

i'm not trying to support this kind of behavior whatsoever, but here's the thing : pengkid is much cooler and hotter than most of the guys out there. last saturday i went to sg wang. there were lotsa people, mostly chinese since 1)that's their number 1 place to hang out. and 2) it's almost chinese new year lorh, what more can u expect kan?

so anyway, i went to this baju area, and my friend was attracted to this sweater in the kedai la. so she asked for the owner. then came a slender, spiky hair, white skin with round eyes guy. i said to my friend, "dude, he's hot." my friend pun agree with me la kan. the guy took the sweater, wrapped it then gave it to my friend. when my friend asked how much was it, dia kata "30 saja maa.." with a neutral voice, as in not so girly and not so manly.

but after that, there's this girl came and peluk2 that guy, speaking chinese but i understood a bit la kan. saying things yang menunjukkan he's a girl. and i was like, "it's a SHE? FOR REAL?!"

*sigh*Go Eun Chan - Coffee Prince

but seriously. aku suka tengok pengkid. ok, that may sounded so wrong, but hey, if he(i mean she) is freaking gorgeous and hot then why not kan? i think pengkid ni tergolong dalam kalangan pondan. girls like to be friends with pondan@si lembut because mereka sangat memahami hati perempuan(like, DUH..). but we'll never consider or look at them as a guy. the same thing with pengkid. where most of us, well, i don't think most of us la kan since girls yang straight kemungkinan takut nak dekat dengan golongan pengkid ni. but some girls yang like to be friends with pengkid tu sebab pengkid berjiwa lelaki (again, like, DUH..). so apa2 hal senang cerita la maknanya.

but up until today, i never had a pengkid among my friends. tomboy tu ada la, si lembut pun ada. tapi nyah belum lagi. tapi serious, most of the pengkid are gorgeous, as in cool gila.

p/s : and hell yeah, Amber FTW!

Amber - f(x)

Amber with Yuri. i think Amber is hotter :D

death list

2010-01-27T22:27:00.005+08:00

suddenly thought of this while 'reading' microbiology notes.

IN CASE IF I DIE :

- my password for emails is m**********. (it's in my phone, go get it)
- my password for laptop is taeyang.
- please don't delete the songs, videos and pictures in my laptop and cellphone because i love them to death. yes. TO DEATH.
- please don't throw away my cds. i earned them susah nak mati ouh -_-".
- you can throw my clothes. or wait, no. BURN THEM.
- now that you know my password, tell all my friends in facebook, friendster and ym about my death. and that i'm sorry. whatever the reason is.
- if you have time, sedekahkan al-fatihah/yassin for me. i would sincerely appreciate that.
- i love ********. there, i've said it. (it's not in my phone.HA-HA)
- to kak nanie : i'm sorry i was being such a jerk.
- and lastly, please forgive my mistakes and attitude. i can't help being such an asshole sometimes.

meleis

2010-01-27T21:14:00.003+08:00

actually aku dah penat nak cakap pasal ni.

kenapa kan, manusia sekarang suka menunjuk2 yang dia ada secret. especially secret yang dia tak nak kamu tahu. dah namanya secret kan, yang kau make it so obvious tu kenapa? aku manusia. normal. aku ada curiosity. mestilah aku tertanya2, nak tahu apa secret tu. bukan la aku ni busy body, tapi aku tak suka dibiar tergantung. tak paham. terpinga2. so lain kali if you have something that you don't want to tell me, don't show it. ini nampak macam lagi samdol ada la.

huh. emo2. dah lama tak emo.

tadi tengok ju-on. sengal. tak takut tu satu hal. kelakar pulak dah hantu dia. storyline memang confuse, standard cerita jepun la kan. the ghosts are like, hurm, i dunno la. maybe sebab dah banyak cerita ju-on yang aku tengok, so aku dah immune dengan hantu2 dia.

lately sangat addicted dengan obefiend. suka troll the meleis. bagus2. to be honest i used to be one of this meleis. tapi lepas baca blog dia, terus tukar status. upgrade sikit. hehe. kool la obe. :D

ok. microbiology is waiting. as usual. and crap. haven't read anything for tomorrow's lab. -_-"

K-Rock

2010-01-26T20:15:00.004+08:00

k-rock. tak ada beza sangat pun dengan k-pop. except yang diorang in a band, playing instrument. tapi tak rock pun. but ok la kalau nak layan.

TRAX

CN BLUE

bajet

2010-01-17T23:11:00.002+08:00

susahnya orang ber'bajet' ni.

bajet bagus.
bajet cun.
bajet terer.
bajet kaya.
bajet kurus.
bajet diri gemuk walaupun skeding macam papan. anorexic. sick.

orang bajet sangat boleh bond dengan orang sama perangai dengan dia.
gila terbaeeeek.

mana2 aku pergi ada je orang bajet. it's like i am destined to live with them.

o lord, jauhkan aku daripada manusia2 bajet ini.
amin.

conflict

2010-01-08T20:38:00.003+08:00

hari ni aku nak cakap pasal konflik.

aku dan microbes.

first day for microbes block : sangat stress. too much to handle. i like the workbook. seriously. aku suka buat exercises dalam tu. tapi aku tak suka hantar. leceh. aku buat kerja pun tak ikhlas. tak termasuk lagi dengan MCQ, mind map, scl. yang ni kene submit esok, yang tu kena pass up next week. ugh, tak ada yang lagi sistematik ke? i don't hate the lecturer. i never will. after all she's my mentor. but i wish she could be more.. em.. considerate?

aku dan manusia sosial.

sejak masuk cucms ni macam2 jenis mamalia aku jumpa. singa, gajah, badak, musang, biawak. macam zoo. setiap mamalia tu macam2 perangai. ada yang lidah bercabang, muka tembok, otak tembus, muka setengah masak tapi bajet cun, dan seumpamanya. and sometimes aku pun termasuk golongan2 itu (sometimes je ok). contoh paling senang:

case 1 : si manis.

jenab merupakan wanita yang diidami oleh 98.9% jejaka single mahupun mereka yang muka macam bapak orang. di kampungnya, dia dikenali dengan perangainya yang lemah lembut, sopan santun, bijak pandai, dan senyuman yang semanis aspartame. tapi hakikatnya, di luar dia tidak ada bezanya dengan minah2 kota pada waktu malam.

case 2 : si alim.

maimon terkenal dengan sifat alimnya. dia tidak pernah meninggalkan rumah tanpa baju yang menutup aurat, lengkap bertudung labuh ke lutut dan sarung kaki serta.. er.. ape tu.. handsock? tapi perangai : *sigh. minah clubbing pun tak ada sampai 3, 4 boyfriend dalam satu masa. erm, kes ni lebih kurang dengan case 1. bezanya case 1 minah tu lagi lawa, dan tak alim. dan minah tu ada 2 boyfriend je.

case 3 : si talam 2 muka.

among her friends, combi sangat baik. senyum tak pernah lekang, bijak, dan peramah. tapi bila balik rumah, perangai berpusing 360 darjah. totally opposite. pikir pasal diri : study, got A, then study, got A again. hal rumah? lain la kalau kau bawak orang gaji kan. tak kisahla dia tolong kemas. eish!!!

*disebabkan case 3 ni agak emo, so tak boleh continue. nanti TERbagitau cerita sebenar.

aku dan okaa-san.

aku jarang call mak aku. sebabnya aku tak tahu nak cakap apa. tiap2 kali dia call dia akan tanya benda yang sama, and jawapan aku pun sama. tak sampai seminit dah hang up.

aku dan cousin.

aku sendiri pun tak faham apa masalah antara kami.almost everyday jumpa tapi masing2 ego tak nak speak up. sampai bila nak jadi macam ni pun aku tak tahu.

aku dan aku.

kadang2 aku tak faham apa yang aku nak. aku rasa aku dah ada semua. tapi still lacking somewhere. and i don't know what that is. aku kata kat orang aku nak jadi psychiatrist. betul ke? or sebab aku tak minat jadik doktor bidang2 lain sebab melibatkan science, teknologi, bla bla bla..
yes, i took medical and yet i'm not interested in science. see? that's my conflict.

ok actually ada banyak lagi nak cerita tapi malas nak taip. sejak masuk alam microbes ni segala benda dah buat aku jadi malas.

new year's resolution

2010-01-03T00:22:00.002+08:00

3rd day of 2010.

2010.

feels weird + awkward even when u type it.

anyway.

what happened in 2009?

i got my driving license. but up until now i only drove a car 2 times...screw those people who don't trust me in handling cars.
1st year medic. hella tough one.
i can count how many times i got angry... meaning i can control my temper kays..
i lost my dad.
i ATE VEGETABLES. yes people. VEGETABLES.
i lost yasmin ahmad.
my auntie still not getting married.
still haven't change my glasses. shoot..
read quran more often.
gossip girl. says who?
bought so many big bang cds.
decided to become a psychiatrist.
started jogging. HAH!

let's hope for a better year in 2010. new year's resolution? eat less. sleep less. play less. talk less. smile less. hate less. like less. yaoi less. everything is less.

benda yang difikir bila dah bosan

2009-12-28T22:22:00.004+08:00

10 THINGS ON " AKU DAH LAMA TAK.."

pergi pantai. picnic. makan sotong bakar. buat istana pasir. timbus2 orang. kutip seashells and ketam. main ombak. rasa air laut.
lepak dengan budak sekolah menengah dulu. semua dah busy.
makan coconut jelly kat restoren tepi sungai. import khas dari thailand. dulu masa duduk mrsm bila weekend parents mesti datang bawak 2 biji kelapa besar gabak. then share dengan rommates. :)
buli orang. last time masa form 5. tu pun aku still baik. tak jahat sangat. nak jaga air muka orang. zaman jahiliah aku masa form 1. sangat best. kesian roommate kena buli ngan aku. sorry nadiah :)
pergi genting. last time dengan ex-housemates kat cyberia. housemates baru ni bila pulak nak start plan???? :(
buat jahat. macam ponteng kelas ke, lawan cikgu ke, gaduh ngan senior ke. sangat best. terasa diri sangat hebat. hahaha.
menangis. mata aku dah kering. kena ada something untuk stimulate aku untuk keluarkan air mata. *menangis sebab tengok drama korea tak kira ya >.<*
marah orang direct on the face. dah tak ada courage. maybe dah belajar control temper kot. itu benda bagus :)
shopping macam nak mati. hurm.. pernah ke aku buat macam tu?
jadi emo. best. rasa isolated gila. tak ada orang berani kacau. really like that moment :D

ISA

2009-12-10T11:34:00.003+08:00

last night mimpi sangat pelik.

ISA. kejar. aku.

gila?

apparently, me and my friend farah said something about the government and it was posted all over in the internet. so we had to run. somewhere. i remember running on the highway, specifically roundabout kat cyberjaya. cyberjaya?

then i went back home. rumah kat tanah merah. sebelum aku pindah time form 1. then there's this guy, who's role is to be my father. eyh? but he's not my father since he used stretcher and he didn't look like my real father. well, maybe he's my stepfather ke kan lol. he stopped me from running away. pastu aku dah tak ingat ape jadi.

skipped skipped skipped sampai part aku kat main campus. aku nak call farah tanya dia nak lari kat mana. then dia datang kata nak pindah mrsm jasin??? gilak? budak u turun level sekolah menengah eyh?

pastu sedar2 dah pukul 10. damn. best gila mimpi. ISA. ngahaaa~

back off

2009-11-24T23:53:00.002+08:00

thanks.

but i don't need you to look after me.

i can handle myself.

walaupun aku tahu aku tak boleh nak jaga diri aku.

tapi i prefer it that way.

mungkin aku ego.

mungkin.

even if i am, biarlah.

aku lagi selesa.

random updates

2009-11-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

hai.

last moday aku, nash, fara, safy, sofy went for a movie. PISAU CUKUR!! sangat best. bitchy gila. gedik fazura sangat menjadi. maya karin sangat lawa. gigi besi sangat cute and sweet. aww...
Basic Life Support exam dah lepas. tak tahu la lulus ke tidak. aku tak kisah pun. whateverrr.
Sunathon? macam dah malas nak masuk. aku pun takut nak sunat orang. takut masa depan orang tu rosak sebab aku. KDK (ketawa dengan kuat, as in LOL : laughing out loud)
esok? exam. macam biasa. dah immune dengan exam. tiap2 minggu exam. hari2 study. tiap2 hujung minggu terperuk kat rumah buat assignment. bosannya hidup macam tu.
Genting. yes. kami plan nak berpoya2 lepas final pathology. heading to Genting yo!
currently start dengar bacaan quran kat ikim dan tengok video pasal islam kat utube. dah nak ajal la ni kot. eish. bak kata mamat yang makan orang tu : dont talk about death when u're still breathing. ya betul! saya sokong.
hari sabtu ni nak tengok 2012 dengan aufa. yeay! then buy shoes. desperate sangat2 ni.
currently dah agak bosan dengan makanan bernama nasi, maggi, pasta, tuna dan sardin. nak cekodok!!!
mamat tu still tak tegur aku. damn.. whatever lah.
aku suka ayat ni "kenapa kita tak nak look stupid in front of someone we like? then how are we going to live with our partner for the rest of our lives without looking stupid once in a while?" kan kan? suka sangat nak kontrol depan pakwe. macam hipokrit. tu yang cerai berai tu. buat natural suda..

p/s : wei nurliyana binti al-bakri. bile nak lepak sama2? dah lama aku ajak tau. kau ni busy yang amat ni... T_T

sign

2009-11-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

semalam aku mimpi ayah. but not in a way that i expected. he's in this building, that looks like a school. but i think it's a hospital though. then i was looking for him at that moment, i ran up and down the stairs, then finally i found him, tapi yang peliknya kawan kepada kawan aku pun ada dalam mimpi tu. dan Mamat Bajet Hensem. entah macam mana dia boleh sesat aku pun tak tahu. they took care of my dad. then suddenly kawan kepada kawan aku pun tanya, najwa, betul eh ur dad said dulu masa kecik u makan tahi cicak?

haha.

lepas tu aku dah tak ingat apa yang berlaku. sedar2 alarm aku tengah memekak.

aku bangun, termenung.
teringat.
rindu.

bogoshipda

2009-10-25T09:54:00.003+08:00

sejuk.

pagi ini sangat sejuk.

....

(diam)

markah exam still tak improve. apa aku nak buat? how to deal with it?

aku sebenarnya dah sesat. sejak bila, aku pun tak pasti. kalau dulu semangat nak jadi cikgu berkobar2 walaupun aku dah masuk medic school. dah berjuta kali aku berhajat nak bagitahu parents aku yang aku nak tukar course. tapi faktor duit dan perasaan menjadi penghalang. kalau aku tukar course, aku kena bayar balik MARA. or to be exact PARENTS aku kena bayar balik MARA. dan parents aku mesti disappointed, lagi2 ayah aku. nak sangat anak dia jadi doktor macam dia. bangga. bagi tahu satu kampung, or em, pejabat, yang anak dia masuk medic school, ikut jejak dia. hati aku? aku tolak ke tepi.

sampai satu masa, tengah lunch dengan ayah, aku bagi tahu pasal ni. not exactly aku bagi tahu yang aku nak tukar course, tapi aku kata yang aku takut tak boleh survive bila masuk first year. yang aku ni makin hari makin malas. tak serajin zaman spm. yang aku guna banyak duit bila masuk medic school tu. yang aku tak nak repeat kalau aku gagal.

ayah diam.

air mata aku menitik ke dalam pinggan di atas meja. tunduk. menanti jawapan. menanti ayah bersuara. dalam hati i pray hard that he won't get emotional. he won't say that he disappointed in me. he won't cry, perhaps even in his heart.

aku tengok ayah. dia nampak tenang. dia kata, belum cuba belum tahu. belajar, mana ada yang senang. ayah dulu masa belajar pun pernah gagal. kena repeat. normal saja.

tapi ayah, kolej ni kalau repeat kena bayar sampai poket kosong. dan mungkin MARA tarik balik pinjaman. aku bersuara dalam hati. aku tahu, kalau aku sebut pasal duit, both of my parents akan kata, jangan risau pasal duit. duit banyak, cukup untuk anak2 belajar. rezeki tu ada di mana2. Tuhan tu maha kaya, maha pemurah. Dia akan tolong kita.

....

"kakak try lah dulu. kalau tak boleh jugak nak buat macam mana. jangan cepat putus asa. hidup ni kalau kita usaha mesti Tuhan tolong. jangan fikir yang kita tak boleh buat itu, tak boleh buat ini. insyaALLAH, kalau kita yakin dengan diri sendiri, Tuhan mesti tengok usaha kita."

.... ayah diam lagi.

"tapi ayah tak nak paksa. kakak fikir apa yang terbaik untuk kakak. memang, kalau boleh ayah nak at least seorang daripada anak2 ayah ikut ayah. tapi kalau kakak nak benda lain, terpulanglah."

then our conversation stopped.

dan itulah perbualan antara aku dan ayah yang terakhir. perbualan yang melibatkan hati dan perasaan.

lepas tu, aku selalu mengelak bila ayah nak cakap dengan aku. aku takut dia sentuh pasal hal tu lagi. dan aku tak nak menangis. sebab aku dah nekad, sejak ayah aku sakit, aku dah tak fikir apa2 lagi. aku tolak cita2 aku. aku tolak keinginan aku. apa nak jadi pun, jadilah. aku dah tetap, aku akan teruskan dengan course ni. aku tak nak ayah sedih. kalau dia sebut pasal hal tu lagi, aku takut aku ubah fikiran. aku takut aku jadi ragu2. and i don't want it to happen.

bila tiba hari aku nak berangkat ke kolej, aku salam dan peluk ayah. aku jarang peluk ayah. tapi kali ni aku kena. aku nak mintak maaf. tapi aku tak tahu kenapa mulut aku terkunci rapat. rasa sebak dalam hati. tapi aku tahan diri daripada menangis.

seminggu kemudian, mak cik aku call.

mak cik : kakak, kita balik kelantan malam ni.
aku : ....... kenapa?
mak cik : ....... ayah sakit.
aku : ........ ok.

aku tahu. this kind of moment will come somehow. tapi aku tak expect secepat ni. i pray so hard, and that aku harap biarlah, biarlah at least sampai aku sempat beraya dengan ayah.

aku tiba di hospital around 7am. aku masuk bilik, tengok orang di sekeliling katil. aku salam ibu, peluk, nangis. aku baca yassin. aku tak tahu berapa kali aku ulang bacaan yassin. mak cik aku kata, kakak, pergi mintak maaf dengan ayah. ayah dengar, cuma tak boleh bagi respond.

aku pegang tangan ayah. sejuk. sekali lagi, mulut aku terkunci. i can only look at him.

kami sekeluarga berkumpul di luar. mak cik dan pak cik aku sangat tenang. as if nothing bad happened. siap buat lawak lagi. gelak2. aku tahu. mereka cuma tak nak tegangkan keadaan. they wanted to be strong, for our sake. terima kasih. sebab itulah aku sayang mereka.

tiba2 doctor rushed into the room. kami bangun. waiting. i knew what's gonna happen. kami masuk tengok ayah. there's no hope. masa tu aku rasa macam nak tikam2 diri. marah. menyesal. menyesal aku tak spend time dengan ayah sebelum ni. marah sebab tak mampu mintak maaf dengan ayah.

after what happened, aku dah tak tahu nak buat apa. aku dah tak ada perasaan nak tukar course. dan aku pun dah tak ada semangat nak teruskan medic. sebab the only reason i've made it this far is because of ayah. kalau bukan sebab ayah, tak ada makna aku nak sacrifice over something yang aku tak rela.

result pun makin menurun. setiap kali nak exam, aku mesti homesick. bila dah homesick, aku tak ada mood nak belajar. hati aku di rumah. dengan family. dengan ayah.

2NE1's CD

2009-10-10T21:53:00.001+08:00

OO YEAH. FINALLY. =)

unpredictable

2009-10-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

just came back from gambang, or kuantan. pahang.

anyway.

my sister's graduation was kind of..well.. don't really know how to describe it since i was there like 15 minutes before the ceremony finished and that i did not buy or play anything at the carnival. so, yeah, macam tu la. and it was hot gila. with me wearing baju kurung. panas.

and right now i'm stuck in cyberheight again. and i got final exam. physiology. dang. don't know whether i can deal with this. feels like quitting. always. but as usual, i'm in a situation that does not allow me to do what i really really really wanted. living a life like this really sucks. but hey, that's life. haha.

off topic.

i just don't understand one thing la. how can a person, or exactly a muslim, i mean not just a regular muslim la. the one that went to sekolah agama and all, wearing tudung labuh and then suddenly like so free when that person got out from the school. i don't really care la about she wearing baju lengan pendek and all, but how can she freely talked about something that's so obviously wrong. saying something like "kalau tuuut pegi kat kolam ni sure tudung melayang ntah ke mana dah."

....

nak buat something like that don't say it in front of other people la. it seems like that person was encouraging other people to do what she did. it felt so wrong. like, how can you solat during ramadhan only? no use at all. freakingly fake. and i blame myself for not being able to say this to that person. because i wasn't that perfect either. but if i wanna do something bad, i won't go around telling other people la, at least. just keep it to yourself and don't make it so obvious. as simple as that.

seriously what's wrong with people lately.

bebelan

2009-09-28T17:04:00.003+08:00

macam takde mood nak study petang ni.
tidur pun tak nak. otak lembab. kata prof hamdan.

bukak facebook. bosan.
friendster. macam nak tutup je akaun tu.
nak buat case study. habuk pun tak jumpa dalam antara-jaring (internet)
gosip dengan housemates. best.
ya allah. tambah lagi dosa aku hari ni.

semalam pergi low yatt. banyak benda nak beli.
printer. thumbdrive. printer.
duit tak cukup. simpan balik niat.
then singgah jusco beli barang.
ack~ habis 55 ringgit malaysia.
kfc chicky meal. around 10 ringgit malaysia.
stock makanan untuk sebulan. 30 ringgit malaysia.
sampai cyber. kemas barang. bukak laptop.
.......
bosan balik.
*sigh*

hari jumaat ni nak pergi pahang.
hajatnye.
tapi takut tak sempat siap assignment.
dah la final.
tch~sangat pening. dilemma.

sekarang still wondering nak tidur ke tak.
dah pukul 5.30. tak payah la najwa.
kau ni dah la cepat lupa.
tidur petang lagi la tak jalan otak tu.

bukak blog mamat ni. dengar lagu lenka.
macam best. nak download kejap lagi.
buat lagu senang tidur.

ok. case study tak siap lagi.
OFF.

a battle

2009-09-07T22:40:00.002+08:00

just came back from home in kelantan.

*sigh*

where should i start..

i was shocked to see my dad. he looked so thin. badan macam tinggal rangka. i would mistook him for my tuk ayah (grandfather) you know. seriously. the whole body was like being burnt, due to the effect of radiotherapy.

i'm so sorry.

i'm sorry that i didn't go near you. it's because if i look at you, i will cry. and i don't want you to see me cry. cuz you will cry too. and when you cry, it will only burden you more. so that's why i can only see you from far. i felt guilty for doing that. i may seems heartless, but i'm battling inside as well. i'm considering about lots of things. it's not that i don't want to give my parents a call, but i just don't want to think about what happen. cuz if i do, i will cry, and cry, and cry. what can i get from crying? it won't solve my problem, nor it will cure my father. and i even cry right now while saying this.

may God forgive me. and may He brings back health to my father. Amiin.

final

2009-09-03T00:28:00.002+08:00

esok final exam.

takut. nak jawab exam.

happy. nak balik rumah.

tapi macam ada yang tak kena.

hopefully nothing bad is going to happen.

fast updates

2009-08-15T14:56:00.005+08:00

lama tak jenguk.
dah berhabuk rupanya.

hai.

like the title said, this is the fast updates from me:

currently in 1st year of medical studies. a tough year. sebab dah tak boleh nak berfoya-foya macam dulu. walaupun tadi baru saja berfoya-foya.
exam pertama dah lepas. agak shock sikit sebab baru kenal dengan format paper tu.
tempat tinggal pun agak shock. cun. tapi agak terpinggir dengan kemudahan awam.
oh ya. projek skodeng melalui tingkap yang aku rasa macam tak ada gunanya di situ. best. XD
kantoi skodeng. serious aku nak baling kamera canon gabak dia tu.
ayah dah boleh balik rumah. habis radioterapi. lega sikit.
H1N1
terpaksa batalkan niat nak pergi konsert. *sigh*
tahun ni ramai.. ??(terpaksa delete atas sebab2 tertentu)
ingat nak balik hari merdeka ni. tapi tiket habis. sedih.
kemungkinan akan dapat kereta kakak punya tak lama lagi.
rumah di cyberheights lagi mental daripada rumah di cyberia. manusia tak pernah bersyukur.
kolej pindah bangunan baru. agak grand la sikit.
orang rumah sebelah bajet cun. samdol. badigol.

ok. itu saja kot.

untitled

2009-07-07T18:16:00.002+08:00

this blog will be closed temporarily.

or maybe permanently.

for how long? i don't know.

perhaps till i'm ready to be blogging again.

or maybe i won't be blogging anymore.

please don't ask me why.

thank you.

gadoh

2009-06-29T18:27:00.003+08:00

filem yang sangat best. tapi sayang panggung tak terima.

aku tak nak cakap banyak. tengok dan nilai sendiri.

Synopsis

Gadoh tells a story of a group of teenagers who fought each other along racial lines; a cycle of hatred and violence further escalated by their environment and school system.

What was to be a quick resolution to improve the school’s bad image, was taken as an opportunity for one teacher who believed that real change was possible. She ropes in the help of an old friend and reluctant maverick theater activist for this arduous task.

Is there hope amidst the cycle of discrimination that surrounds us? Watch Gadoh for their story, and what it may very well tell us about ourselves.

Movie Info:

Duration: 70 mins
Director: Brenda Danker, Namron
Producer: Anna Har
Production Company: Big Pictures Productions
Supported by Pusat KOMAS
Starring: Namron, Nicholas Liew Davis, Zahiril Adzim, Amerul Affendi and Maya Tan Abdullah
Language: Bahasa Malaysia with English/BM subtitles
Poster design by: Alexdrina Chong, Lucid Design Collaborative Studio

Download links:

http://www.megaftp.com/39883
http://www.megaftp.com/39786
http://www.megaftp.com/39882

credit to ohartis.com

why america?

2009-06-29T06:31:00.004+08:00

NOBODY english version by WONDER GIRLS

to be honest, it sounds kinda lame. and they could have done another MV for the english version, not dubbing with stupid voices and insert new shots in the old MV. and even with the english version, i still don't know what they're saying if there's no lyrics in front of me.

i don't understand why korean artist berlumba-lumba nak promote themselves in america. they look so desperate to me. it's not like i hate them for doing that, but when they're in US market, they are completely a different person. their music has been americanized. look at what US did to Se7en's "Girls" and Boa's "I Did It For Love". that is soo not korean.

the reason we cheer for korean artist is because of their music, which is unique. and because we're tired with american songs who's been talking about nothing but money, sex and so on.

and i hope JYP will make a new MV for "Tell Me". and WG needs to brush up their voices and accent as well.

WG Fighting!

and oh, some previews for their performance in JoBro's concert. seriously the crowd was so silent. were they dying or what? well, i guess they were trying to figure out what the hell was happening on the stage and who the heck were those bunch of weird-dance-movement-with-accent girls..

I'M JUST SAYING.

fear

2009-06-28T22:24:00.006+08:00

Multiple myeloma also known as MM, myeloma, plasma cell myeloma, or as Kahler's disease is a cancer of plasma cells. These immune cells are formed in bone marrow, are numerous in lymphatics and produce antibodies. Myeloma is incurable, but remissions may be induced with steroids, chemotherapy, thalidomide and stem cell transplants. Median survival is 3 years, but the introduction of novel treatments in the last decade have improved this prognosis to 50–55 months. Chromosome diagnosis can separate patients into more or less favorable prognoses. Myeloma is part of the broad group of diseases called hematological malignancies.

Hypercalcaemia is an elevated calcium level in the blood. It can be an asymptomatic laboratory finding, but because an elevated calcium level is often indicative of other diseases, a diagnosis should be undertaken if it persists. It can be due to excessive skeletal calcium release, increased intestinal calcium absorption, or decreased renal calcium excretion.

....

btw, i passed the driving test. not much of a news anyway considering the fact that my dad probably had not improve so well. i can deal with hypercalcaemia, but certainly push aside the possibility of getting multiple myeloma case.

the legend

2009-06-26T15:49:00.003+08:00

the legendary king of pop, Michael Jackson is dead.

it's still unknown whether he really converted into Islam or not.

if he did, i hope the funeral would be according to the Islamic way. at least, his Muslim brother can take care of it.

i feel really sad right now, even though i'm not really a big fan of MJ but i loved watching him do the moonwalk thing.

and right now it's all just a history.

to think about it, it's really tragic, you know, of the way he died. because dia baru saja nak buat comeback, to clear all the stupid scandals. to tell you the truth, i never believed that he molested those kids. he just loved the children, how could he ever hurt em? i blamed all those stupid media who are incredibly jealous of MJ's success.

but then, hanya Tuhan saja that knows the truth.

god bless you MJ. may you rest in peace.

get smart

2009-06-23T18:44:00.002+08:00

Tidak semua perkara yang benar itu logik

Kisah 1: Seorang kafir (OK) berkata pada orang mukmin (OM) yang sedang berwudhuk:

OK: “Kenapa kamu wudhuk?
OM: “Aku tadi batal wudhuk sebab terkentut”
OK: ” Aku heran, kamu kentut di belakang tapi kenapa kamu cuci muka, tangan, kepala dan kaki kamu? Kenapa kamu tidak cuci tempat yang keluar kentut?

OM: “Ini arahan Tuhanku, aku taat saja”
OK: “Jelas sekali agama kamu ini tidak benar. Arahannya tidak logik sama sekali”
OM: “Kebenaran itu tidak semestinya logik”
OK: ” Apa buktinya?
OM: Yuk ikut aku

OM membawa OK ke sebuah pintu. Lalu OM memegang tangan OK, kemudian menyepit tangan OM dengan pintu itu. OK menjerit kesakitan.

OK: Aduh tangan aku sakit…tolong lepaskan tangan aku!
OM: Baiklah…inilah jawabanku: tangan kamu yang sakit, tapi kenapa mulut kamu yang menjerit.
OM pun meninggalkan OK yang bodoh sombong itu dalam kesakitan….

Tidak semua perkara yang logik itu benar..

Kisah2: Seorang kafir (OK) berkata kepada orang mukmin (OM)

OK: Tuhan kamu sungguh tidak adil
OM: Kenapa?
OK: Tuhan kamu menghukum manusia dan syaitan yang jahat di dalam neraka yang terbuat dari api. Tentu saja manusia tersiksa tapi syaitan enak saja.
OM: Kenapa begitu?
OK: Yalah…manusia dicipta dari tanah, kalau dibakar dengan api hangus, sakitlah. Tapi syaitan dicipta dari api, kalau dibakar dengan api relaks lah….tdk terasa apa-apa….
OM: Tidak begitu. Tuhan aku kata, mereka semua akan tersiksa…
OK: Ah…tdk mungkin. Logiknya manusia saja yg tersiksa, syaitan tidak

OM diam sebentar, lalu dia meninggalkan OK. Beberapa waktu kemudian OM datang lagi dengan membawa sebongkah tanah keras dan melemparnya tepat ke dahi OK. Dahi OK luka berlumuran darah. Kemudian dia membawa OM menghadap seorang hakim. Setelah mendengar cerita dari kedua belah pihak ttg kejadian itu, maka hakim bertanya pada OM.

Hakim: mengapa kamu lempar OK begitu?
OM : Maaf Tuan Hakim, OK mengatakan bahwa Tuhan tidak adil kerana menghukum manusia dan syaitan yang jahat di dalam neraka yang terbuat dari api. Tentu saja manusia tersiksa tapi syaitan enak saja sbb syaitan dicipta dari api. Logiknya memang begitu, tapi itu tidak benar. TIDAK SEMUA YANG LOGIK ITU BENAR. Sebagai buktinya saya lempar dia dengan tanah. Logiknya OK, manusia yg dicipta dari tanah kalau dilempar dengan tanah tidak sakit, bukan? Tapi buktinya OK luka dan sakit. Saya tidak bermaksud menyakitinya, saya hanya mau menjawab pertanyaannya.

Renungan kepada para pengagum Albert Einstein, Bill Gates, para saintis, filosof dan yang sejenis dengannya

Kalau begitu, siapakah sebenarnya manusia yang paling cerdik? Einstein, dll yang kafir atau orang mukmin (walaupun dia hanya tukang kebun)?

credit to ohtidak

oyaji

2009-06-18T08:00:00.003+08:00

dah lama tak update.

why? kenapa aku tak update? (tiru modal Shino from Naruto.dang that guy is funny and annoying at the same time XD)

sebab aku busy. itu alasan terbaik kan?

anyway.

my dad got admitted to the hospital. something's wrong with his back. i dunno what's the medical terms for it. although i SHOULD know considering i'm taking medical, and i JUST learned about the bones last semester. so yeah, it's pretty much like it and i have to take care of him. sounds noble? tch. i don't think so.

to be honest i never expect him to experience this kind of situation. never thought he would get sick, sick as in REALLY sick. i mean cuz he's a doctor, and doctors in general SHOULD NOT get sick. coz who's going to take care of the others if the doctor can't take care of himself? right?

well, maybe i'm just the only one who thinks like that.

for this 21st June 2009,

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DAD. HOPE YOU GET WELL SOON.

cuz we miss watching you chasing the kitties around the house! (haha. don't think i didn't know that, dad.)

YouTube bodoh

2009-06-12T11:24:00.003+08:00

enough said with the title.

kickass

2009-06-11T18:42:00.001+08:00

i can't stop laughing for this one. seriously.

pretty crazy. and creative.

lmfao

mogok

2009-06-10T17:58:00.002+08:00

BOSAN.

SANGAT.

SANGAT.

MACAM.

NAK.

MATI.

p/s : did i tell u that Bleach is soooo boring?? up until episode 6 and i've had enough. i don't know why it's so popular. Naruto and One Piece are sooo much better. I'M JUST SAYING.

reunion-snippet

2009-06-09T22:17:00.004+08:00

reunion membawa kepada pertemuan antara aku, yana dan yana.

ya, ada dua yana. so to make it easier, aku namakan yana suju dan yana dbsk.

kerana aku najwa big bang. hehe ^_^

suju : wei, nanti ujung taun ni maybe ade konsert suju. mau datang??
dbsk : ha???waaa...bestnye!!
big bang : aku boley je. call je, nanti pandai2 la aku carik duit.berape bajet?
suju : paling koman 1 rat. tu pon nanti kepala dorang nampak cam semut je la.
dbsk : ha..er..T_T
big bang : paling depan?
suju : gile? 5 rat. mane nak kebas?
dbsk : aa..x ley murah lagi ke?
suju : bajet between 1 rat hingge 3 rat. 5 rat aku pon x mampu..
big bang : 3 rat pon jadi la...
dbsk : adeh..ikat perot gua nanti.. ;((
big bang : oo pastu nanti SS501 pon maybe de gak december ni.
suju : ok set.
dbsk : aiyark!!

itulah perbualan tak seberapa between ELF, Cassiopeia dan VIP.
anda akan memahami terms ini jika anda berjiwa korea.

note : perbualan ini aku punya version. bahasa mereka tidak sekasar itu. saja nak bagi spice.biar bunyi kaw2 sikit.

big bang : bile big bang nak wat concert kt msia neyh??
suju : tawakkal je bro..

kempunan gila nak pegang lampu tu.. cun sangat2

reunion

2009-06-07T21:35:00.004+08:00

REUNION : TERBONGKAR SEGALA RAHSIA

emm..

to tell you the truth the reunion was really enjoyable for the first half.

but then towards the end, i've been told about things that i thought would be good for me if i didn't know em. because those secrets somehow will change my perspectives towards certain people, especially for someone that was so innocent back in the high school, but perhaps due to culture shock or whatever the reason is, she's not so innocent anymore.

it's somehow amazing how different places can change people's behavior. and it's a lot more amazing how love can shatter their strong faith.

if love is able to give such influence, then perhaps i don't want to be involved in it. at all.

rakan yang pernah aku pandang tinggi suatu ketika dahulu kini ku pandang sebelah mata saja. atau mungkin aku tak mahu langsung untuk menoleh kearahnya lagi. kerana bimbang hati aku akan mengutuk dan mencerca kelakuannya, peribadinya.

kalau nak ditegur. orang kata:

"alah..biarlah dia.. dah besar panjang.tau la pikir sndiri.."

masalahnya, perlukah mereka dibiarkan semata-mata alasan manusia itu sudah besar?

aku sendiri pun tak tahu.

insomnia

2009-06-05T19:24:00.005+08:00

which one is better?

CRAIG DAVID (original version)

WHEESUNG (korean version)

i say i like WHEESUNG. maybe because :

he's korean
he has the look..and shades
he's humble (how do i even know this??)
his rap is better (even though i don't know what the heck is he talking about)
he's better at moving the body

filem tak tidur malam

2009-06-05T19:20:00.001+08:00

you've got to love this one. if not then you're gay. (man i use that word too much lately.what's wrong with me?)

FINAL DESTINATION 4

uber blog - joudan ka?

2009-06-05T18:45:00.004+08:00

Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang si pemberi award ini.

suka spongebob (adakah itu sesuatu yang menarik?)
memiliki kereta biru (menarik baginya..kot)
watashi no aneki
kanojo wa shigoto ga suki desu
i GUESS she likes adam gaybert (which is weird, not interesting. lol)

Setiap blogger mestilah menyatakan 10 fakta atau hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih

suka jepun. which is cool :)
suka anime
suka drama jepun
suka lagu jepun
suka fesyen jepun
suka bahasa jepun
suka negara jepun
....i told u i like japan
sehari kalau tak dengar at least 1 lagu jepun/korea memang tak sah
fakta paling penting : unpredictable. seriously. sometimes i just don't understand myself

Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award dan describe tentang mereka

can
i
just
tag
anyone
who
reads
this
post
question mark (?)

ok. i guess that's it.

stupidity

2009-06-01T22:53:00.003+08:00

brg2 dlm wallet yg sgt penting:

IC
CIMB card
CUCMS card
driving test card

and all of em were gone cuz i lost it somewhere aku sndiri pon x tau kt ne. namenye pon ilang kan.

aku rase cam nak tendang sumer orang je. cane la boley jatuh. tak penah2 jadik camtu. sial.

kalo wallet aku cam naruto kan best. kalo jatuh snang nak jumpe. pncurik pon tak minat nak amek. ne~gama-chan?

driving license

2009-05-27T17:00:00.002+08:00

computer test : 48/50
time taken : 8 minutes 15 seconds

**sedih sebab tak dapat full tapi bangga sebab buat tak sampai 10 minit. hehe**

alkisahnya, semalam first time test kereta. agak bangga kerana dipuji cepat pick up oleh kak ma. *riak*

hari ini, ujian memandu bukan dengan kak ma, tapi dengan seorang abang yang, er, tak payah cakaplah. aku menerima balasan dari tuhan kerana perasaan riak tersebut. agak beberapa kali jugaklah kereta aku termati enjin. dan aku agak fail bila time nak parking. sebab tak ingat kena pusing belah mana, berapa kali nak pusing. tapi bangga tak pernah langgar palang. *riak balik*

huh. berpeluh satu badan. sebab panas ok. air cond tak ada. bukan sebab gabra. *cover line*

then i thought practice sudah habis. tapi tiba2..

kak ma : najwa, jom gi test kat jalan raya
aku : hah? alamak.. boley ke kak ma.. parking pun tak lepas lagi ni...
kak ma : takpe2.slow2 je..

memang sangat nervous. tapi bila keluar kat jalan raya, fuh... bestnya dunia.. hehe

kak ma : sampai kawasan sekolah guna gear 2, nak berhenti gear 1, nak jalan biasa gear 3
aku : kalau guna gear 4 tak boley?
kak ma : gear 3 je..

setiap kali aku nak pecut kak ma stop aku. bosan.

.......

gile berlagak btol.tak lepas baru tau.

standing ovation

2009-05-25T21:03:00.004+08:00

previously i said that kris allen's version of heartless is better than kanye west version.

well, it's still true.

but this performance by kanye is somewhat different.

first, he adds up some more lyrics. real deep, meaningful lyrics.

second, he delivers the song so great that i can actually feel the pain and sadness in the song.

definitely epic.

favourite lines:

"does this hurtful comment have a receipt?"

"does this staggering piece of truth that was never told have an expiration date?"

and owh. another one.

"with my pink shirt on. does this look gay to you?"

lol.

asian united

2009-05-24T11:38:00.001+08:00

This is the Project EAR - Marabahaya.

In the video you will find Pop Shuvit (Malaysia), Slapshock (Philippines), Saint Loco (Indonesia), Ahli Fiqir (Singapore), Thaitanium (Thailand), and Silksounds (Thailand).

gila gempak.

heishi

2009-05-20T14:28:00.004+08:00

PROGRAM LATIHAN KHIDMAT NEGARA

NOKP : 910502035098

NAMA : NAJWA IZZATI BINTI MOHD NORDIN

KUMPULAN: 3

PICKUP POINT : PADANG DAERAH MACHANG

NEGERI PKP : KELANTAN

NAMA KEM : KEM PLKN BUKIT BESAR, KULIM

ALAMAT KEM1 : LOT 392

ALAMAT KEM2 : JALAN PANCUR

ALAMAT KEM3 : BUKIT BESAR

POSKOD KEM : 09000

BANDAR KEM : KULIM

NEGERI KEM : KEDAH

TARIKH LAPOR : 16/06/2009

MASA LAPOR : 2.30 PTG

dang! it's too late already..

gotcha!

2009-05-19T21:52:00.006+08:00

at first i thought pcd's the one who's been punk'd. with jessica started crying, melody cursing and nicole saying this is the worst interview ever, i thought the hitz crew had messed up this time.

but then..

probably the best prank ever. i mean come one, it's PCD!

adam is sooo lucky!

the next one is from panic! at the disco, lead from pop shuvit and arianna give a gotcha call to rahul from one buck short. obs was supposed to be the opening act for the PATD concert. but then they told him they want pop shuvit instead of one buck short.

i think brendon can't pull off a prank. he gets giddy so quick. lol so adorable :p

gay epidemics

2009-05-17T16:30:00.002+08:00

how big is the impact of nobody by wonder girls?

gay rules.

lmfao.

supertalented

2009-05-17T11:30:00.004+08:00

currently following britain's got talent. then i fell for these two hot hunks :p

the 'i know-i know-i know' part is kinda amazing, although it seems to annoy me a lil bit. lol

judging from his appearance i thought he's gonna sing a rock song. dang! here comes a woman voice.

simon : it's like a dog meowing.

lol

heartless

2009-05-17T11:04:00.004+08:00

i don't really follow the latest season of american idol. i just heard about adam lambert, how good he is, bla bla bla. but then i don't really like his voice. at least not for me.

but when i watched the top 3 a couple of days ago, i was attracted to this performance by kris allen. he sang heartless by kanye west. never heard of the original version, but since randy said it's better than kanye west, i think it's enough already.

say no to zac (updated)

2009-05-16T14:12:00.008+08:00

American Death Note Movie In Development

Universal Pictures has revealed that Vertigo Entertainment is developing an American live action film adaptation of Tsugumi Ohba and Takeshi Obata’s supernatural suspense manga story Death Note.

The person they wish to play Light Yagami is none other than Disney's own:

Zac Effron

......

like WTF????

rumoured director-- Bryan Bertino- is known for his film "The Strangers" Which only gained a 41% on Rotten Tomatoes, is said to be directing it. He is surely planning on making this a horror film, which any REAL Death Note fan knows that it is not.

Petition to say NO to Zac is up now.

http://www.petitiononline.com/apple88/petition.html

For those who disagree, please sign this.

Petition to cast Ken'ichi Matsuyama (original actor) as L

http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/lindeathnote/index.html

Your support is greatly appreciated.”

*can't imagine having zac efron as kira. that will make kira looks gay. omg. absolute disaster.

comparison between zac and light yagami

i mean, of course light and zac kinda look the same. but kira is an epic character. and it needs more than just a DISNEY GAY FREAK. zac is sooooo not meant for light.

AAAAARRRGGGHH!!! I'M SO MAAAAAD!!!!!!!

why do they have to do the american remake?? i mean seriously. screw u american!!!!
there's no way the american version is going to be as amazing as the japanese version. it's like death note is only meant for japanese. look at what they did to dragon ball!!!!! and not to mention street fighter!!! A COMPLETE DISASTER!

anyway, this is just a rumour though. but still, i don't like the idea of having an american remake of death note. it's like watching marc (ugly betty) playing as the joker instead of heath ledger.

cello genius

2009-05-13T20:44:00.003+08:00

THIRD CHAPTER

When the girl was thinking about love, the room fell silent as usual.
However, her mind was drifting and unsettled.
When she was thinking about love, she worried over her reflection while looking in the mirror.

I wish I were cuter,
I wish I were more honest…

She is again a long way off from sleep.

With one more chapter left, what will the girl’s destiny be?
Have you guys had this kind of experience?
I used to be like this before exams…restless and having trouble sleeping.
And once I became sleepy during the exam the next day!

CAT

On my way to the management office today, I saw cats.
One of them was a friendly calico and I made friends with it. I took a picture.
It was yawning here.
People would stare strangley at me since I start speaking the cat language when I see cats.
Can you guys also speak the cat language?

By the way...
"Hisssss!" means
"Don't come" or "Don't get closer."
I feel sad when a cat says that to me.

directly from the blog,

-Kanon Wakeshima-

* i like her because she brings a unique and haunting sound composed of baroque cello, strong vocals, and electronic arrangements.her style is unique though. she'll make her US debut soon.

desperado

2009-05-12T17:52:00.002+08:00

ada sesiapa tahu di mana aku boleh dapat borang permohonan biasiswa medical/pharmacy/dental ke mesir/jepun?

khabarkan kepadaku segera.

there's not much time left

watashi ha zetsubou teki de aru

私は絶望的である

akirameru..ka?

2009-05-10T18:43:00.005+08:00

dilemma.

my cousin decided to quit from taking medical after completing his first year.

he's quite a genius. but he's afraid to inject people with needle.

not to mention the surgery thingy.

hmm...

then why did he take this course in the first place..?

he wants to quit. and i don't know what kind of journey will he choose next.

well.

this makes me think of quitting too.

since i know where i stand. and it's far below that level.

i'm not trying to give up.

but if i don't quit now, then it's gonna be much complex afterward.

people always respond to me by saying that:

"it's ok.u can do it"

"think positive.it's not that hard"

"this is a good opportunity.good job.good MONEY"

well, those people won't be saying that anymore when they put themselves in my shoes.

dosuru no? huh.. yappari mendou na..

luffy the captain of pirates

2009-05-05T22:38:00.003+08:00

hidup teramatlah bosan di rumah.
masih menunggu kawan-kawan cuti untuk pergi joli.
cepatlah kau orang.
aku tunggu masa saja nak mental di rumah ni.
nasib baik ada naruto. dan juga luffy.
ya, aku dah ada masalah mental.
jauhkan animasi dariku~

p/s : one piece is getting more exciting now. combination of 3 captain : luffy, eustass kidd and trafalgar law. episode 399 is definitely epic and phenomenal.

ya ya aku dah gila. terima kasih.

di sampingmu

2009-05-05T15:00:00.003+08:00

kenapa aku suka the divine masters?

sebab ada Lotter!!! ^_^

tanjobi omedeto

2009-05-02T17:41:00.005+08:00

apabila tiba hari lahir, ini menandakan :

anda semakin tua
anda semakin hampir dengan kematian
anda akan kehilangan zaman2 yang enjoy dan kool
anda tidak boleh bersikap kebudak-budakan lagi
anda akan merasakan dunia ini sungguh bermasalah
anda perlu bertindak mengikut akal, bukan perasaan
anda akan kerap dipanggil akak atau mungkin juga makcik, bukan lagi adik
anda akan rasa malu untuk makan nyum nyum di khalayak ramai
anda terpaksa minat *cough* barbie *cough* secara sembunyi2
anda mungkin akan menerima kehadiran orang baru dalam hidup anda (i'm not even that close lol)

so, this is why i don't really like to celebrate my birthday.

i'm 18 today.getting older.a tough life is waiting for me.please god.not just yet.i still wanna have fun.still wanna be crazy.

tanjobi omedeto.

fantabulous

2009-05-01T22:36:00.002+08:00

TOMOK WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ghost

2009-04-30T17:51:00.002+08:00

season 1

season 2

lagi satu drama berkualiti. the concept is almost the same as ghost whisperer. but i guess this one is much better. at least i thought so.

and owh, my *cough* man *cough* zahiril is starring in the second season. well, i got the feeling that he's the culprit behind the murder. if it is, then i'll be the first one to say

"oh no you didn't!!!"

merah puteh

2009-04-29T22:56:00.004+08:00

ok. di mana perlu aku mula.

sejujurnya, aku bukanlah jenis yang suka melayan cerita melayu. namun ada pihak2 yang berkecuali. kalau filem, aku hanya akan tengok cerita arahan yasmin ahmad dan afdlin shauki. dan mungkin juga filem2 yang ber'style' kami the movie dan gol dan gincu. yang lain, sorry aku tolak tepi. drama lagilah aku malas nak layan.

tapi drama merah dan puteh ni agak lain daripada rata2 drama melayu yang ada di tv sekarang, umpamanya drama yang entah apa2 seperti spa q, cinta untuk ain, dan seangkatan dengannya.

sebenarnya, apa yang menjadikan drama2 tersebut low class dari pandangan mata aku ialah kelemahan skrip dan kualiti pelakon. rata2 skrip macam sampah. sangat cliche. bosan. cheesy. corny. yang membuatkan orang seperti aku selalu meluahkan kata2 seperti "adehh..." atau "nak muntah siot" atau "asal bodoh sangat cite ni?" dan sebagainya. pelakon pula. *mengeluh* balik2 muka sama. kalau pandai berlakon tak apalah.make up pula tebal tahap gaban. muka perempuan macam pontianak. yang lelaki pula macam bapuk.

anyway.

yang membuatkan aku lagi suka drama ni sebab MERAH lakonan zahiril adzim. sangat selamba. tak perlu action yang lebih2. kool. macam tengok realiti program. like diari af. ok aku tak tengok benda mengarut tu. aku pun tak tahu sejak bila aku minat mamat ni. aku tahu yang dia pernah berlakon dalam kami the movie. tapi masa tu aku tak acknowledge dia pun. haha. sengal. maybe lepas aku tengok dia baca puisi masa event bintang jatuh anjuran wani ardy. tak sangka pulak tajul yang gangster bagai nak rak boleh jadi pemuisi.

p/s: just in case if MERAH reads this, (well, i know it's quite a big possibility to be impossible) boy i tell you that you should try yasmin ahmad's style. trust me, your talent won't be wasted. buktinya, tengok filem talentime. tak perlu ada pelakon2 terkenal, lawa2, tapi lakonan mereka sangat berkesan. ok? *wink*

bas malam

2009-04-27T09:02:00.002+08:00

pukul 1.56 pagi.

di dalam bas.

bosan. dan lapar.

tu lah. orang suruh habiskan burger tadi tak nak.

handphone pun lupa nak charge. kan dah habis bateri.

last2 buka beg ambil laptop. senang cerita.

.....

hmm. macam tak tahu nak tulis apa la pulak.

oo ya. sejuk. sangat2. sebab tak ada selimut.

dan tak selesa. sangat2. sebab peot.

tadi beli souvenir untuk orang2 di rumah.

first time nak buat baik. *angel*

dan. dan mak cik aku mahu kahwin.

dengan siapa pun dia tak tahu.

aku lagi la tak tahu.

aku hanya mampu wish all the best to her.

and hopefully it won't happen to me.

at least, i won't allow it to happen to me.

zettai ni.

p/s: after this aku tak akan balik malam dah. takut aku tak sedar. nanti tak pasal2 dah sampai kat kota. naya aku.

kura2 makan gulai

2009-04-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

the last day in cyberia before i go back home.

and it's freaking BOOOORIIIING since the internet line was cut off.

and god knows how pathetic my life would be without internet.

so i decided to go to mmu.

dan line internet sangat2 lembab tahap kura2 baru lepas makan gulai.

huh. nama saja multimedia. multi sangat la.

esok dah nak balik. dan housemate aku still menggila. like always.

the one and only meroyan. sick.

overload

2009-04-22T23:42:00.003+08:00

everytime my head was overloaded with digits, i felt like throwing up.

i like math, i do. but i guess numbers are not my yin fern. hehe.

tomorrow will be the last paper.

and probably the last time i'll be stressing my head off in there.

uwaah. better get back to permutation and combination.

and probability.

if not, the probability of me getting an F in math wud be 99.9%

royyan

2009-04-21T21:55:00.003+08:00

ada tak di antara kawan kamu yang meroyan?

menjerit tak tentu pasal. membentak2. menyanyi suara katak.

aku ada.

and it's hella annoying.

arienai

2009-04-20T22:56:00.002+08:00

ima made, watashi wa sabishi dakara.

zutto hitori.

wakatte kure no ka? sono kimochi.

mou ichido, minna no aisaretai.

sono yume, yappari muri ka?

saa na.

global warming

2009-04-20T18:01:00.004+08:00

cyberjaya sudah terasa effect global warming.

hari-hari panas.

malam pun panas.

petang lagi panas.

is it the weather or me having lots of sins? haha.

by the way, kepada pm baru kita, najib.

tanamlah pokok kat cyberjaya ni banyak2.

dan buatlah shopping complex satu. beserta panggung wayang.

or mungkin kalau bajet tak cukup boleh set up gerai2 tepi jalan.

bolehlah kami menikmati cendol petang2.

janganlah elitkan sangat cyberjaya ni.

sampai gerai goreng pisang pun tak ada.

er.... ok back to the topic.

di cyberjaya kalau jemur baju setengah jam pun dah kering. panas sangat..

hish..manusia. tak pernah nak bersyukur.

panas pun complaint, hujan pun complaint.

so, sama2lah kita selamatkan bumi.

save cyberjaya, save the world!

i wanna screeeeaaamm!!

2009-04-19T20:08:00.003+08:00

yatta!!!!

problem dah setel.

mekasih kt izzah nasir first and foremost.

nasihat ko mmg sgt bergune.

boley jadik pakar motivasi nih. haha.

anyway to aufa too. (tak taula nape kite b'trime kasih kt awak.spatotnye x perlu.haha)

yokatta ne~

masalah dah selesai..........kot?

hahaha.whatever la..

note:aku x gune bhs baku kali ni.sbb mood t'lampau hepi.so x smpat nk pikir gne bhs pe.huhu

growing up

2009-04-18T20:03:00.003+08:00

i ran way.

i ran away from home just to avoid my problems.

i never did something like this before. i never thought i would think of that. and i was taking the risk of probability getting failed in the examination since all i did at my aunt's house was eating, laughing and watching the screen with moving pictures and sounds.

to tell or not to tell. that is the question.

i hate to admit how pathetic i will look like if i tell them about it. i don't want them to see 'the weak najwa'. even though i used to cry a couple of times in front of them. but still.

since i promised myself starting from this semester that i will never cry because of the problems i have.

how pathetic people can be, when they go to you like you're an angel when you have something that they want, when they want you to do something that they can't do because they are too coward, when they want someone to eat with, to laugh with.

but they ran away from you, left you alone in the house when they want to do something that you aren't capable of, when you're not smart enough, and when you don't have anything that will attract them, like you're some kind of a disease.

when will they grow up? to be able to stop doing this.

when will I grow up? to be able to solve this.

seribu satu kemungkinan

2009-04-18T15:59:00.006+08:00

semua orang mula bertukar profesi menjual ikan apabila tiba musim peperiksaan.

mengapa agaknya ya?

adakah musim peperiksaan itu jatuh pada musim tengkujuh?

atau harga barang naik pada musim peperiksaan? kerana untuk mendapat keputusan cemerlang makanan berprotein tinggi seperti ikan hendaklah diutamakan?

atau mungkin kerana penjualan ikan tersebut ada kaitan dengan subjek2 seperti biologi atau matematik?

atau mungkin itu alasan semata-mata untuk fokus kepada peperiksaan.

mungkin.

*mengeluh*

manusia yang tipikal.

rasa hati

2009-04-17T00:07:00.005+08:00

pernah tak kau rasa
ada sesuatu yang kau ingin khabarkan kepada seseorang itu
tapi kau simpan saja dalam hati kecil itu

pernah tak kau rasa
sebak di dada yang tak mampu kau tanggung keseorangan
tapi kau tahan saja air mata itu

pernah tak kau rasa
hati kau diremuk-remuk sampai hampir tidak bernyawa
tapi kau biarkan saja, tidak melawan masalah itu

pernah tak kau rasa
suka sama si manusia ini sangat-sangat
tapi kau pendam saja perasaan itu

pernah tak kau rasa
ingin menceritakan siapa kau sebenar
tapi kau takut kerana ego yang menguasai itu

pernah tak kau rasa
menyesal akan sesuatu perkara
tapi kau tak mampu mengubah nasib itu

pernah tak kau rasa
marah dan kecewa dengan sikap si dia
tapi kau tak berkuasa menukar hidup manusia itu

pernah tak kau rasa
kesunyian walau dikerumun beribu manusia
tapi kau tak berdaya menyingkir perasaan itu

pernah tak kau rasa
inginkan masa depan seperti yang diharapkan
tapi kau tak yakin dengan kebolehan diri itu

pernah tak kau rasa
telah mengecewakan semua hati mereka
tapi kau tak bisa mengampun diri itu

aku pernah.

reminiscing

2009-04-13T16:55:00.006+08:00

5 brands you like the most

Nokia
Nike
Nose
Cadbury (hehe)
Famous Amos?? haha

5 brands you dislike

Pollo
Bata
Crocodile
ntah
ntah

5 countries that you want to go the most

Japan
Korea
New Zealand
Egypt
Paris

5 item that you like the most

Earrings!!
Watch
Bags
Shoes
Dress

5 item that you dislike the most

Glasses
Ring
dunno

5 people that you love the most

Kazoku
Tomo dachi
Sensei
Hyde & Yasu
Koibito (haha)

5 people that you hate the most

Mawi
Pak lah (don't sue me)
Najib (again, don't sue me)
Bush (u can't sue me.haha)
Me when i'm helpless

5 color that you like the most?

Pink
Red
Black
Purple
White

5 color that you dislike the most?

Green
Yellow
Brown
Orange
Blue

5 things that you dream the most

go to Big Bang and ABC's concert
got one million-buy shoes,dress,bags
to be able to think like dr mahathir
koibito that meets my criteria.haha u wish
speak fluent japanese. one day perhaps.

5 of your positive character

dunno
u
tell
me
la

5 of your negative character

forgetful
cry baby
warm-tempered. hehe
can't make up my mind
coward

5 moments that you miss the most

life in smach
life when my brother was still around
life when i was a lil kid
life when i got what i want
life when everything seems innocent

5 moments that you do not want to remember at all?

my first day at smkm.really ug-ley
i tripped on my way to the toilet at r&r. dang!
kena baling dengan duster oleh cikgu sjarah
i fought with my parents
chemistry presentation. uwaagh~

5 positive characters of your best buddy

patient
understanding
cheerful
funny
innocent

5 negative characters of your best buddy

have a weird laugh
so kelam kabut
dah
lupa
dah

5 things that you happy to do the most (Of your entire life)

ponteng kelas
bully junior. yezzza!
kenakan aufa. wii~
nasyid time sekolah rendah.
menganyam ketupat bersama member2 tersayang

5 things that you regret the most

didn't express what i want to my parents
didn't visit ikhwan till his last day
tengok filem 'Jangan Tegur'
my brother crossed the road
didn't make up with my friends

SINGLE QUESTION

Favorite animal?

Horsie~

Favorite quote?

Bengong je.

Favorite actor?

Ikuta Toma, Haruma Miura, Johnny Depp

Favorite actress?

Horikita Maki, Aragaki Yui, Sharifah Amani, Aoi Miyazaki

Favorite things that you do when you are alone?

online.listen to music.daydreaming.

Favorite website?

mysoju.com

Favorite moment?

ano toki. hihi

Favorite sport?

Badminton of course!

Favorite vegetable?
Carrot, Mushroom, Cauliflower. Coleslawww!!

Favorite movie?

films by yasmin ahmad

Tag this to

yana bakri
aki
kak long
diah
juan
izzah nasir lagi sekali. haha

edisi tampar sampai mati

2009-04-12T21:14:00.002+08:00

aish..

lagi seminggu nak final.

and i'm still lost. deserted.

someone slap me please.

so that i will finally realize.

kalau tak aku tak boleh ambil medic.

.....

aaah! peduli apa aku. masa depanku sudah ku pertaruhkan dari awal lagi.

hidup aku sudah bertukar arus sejak aku memilih cucms.

jadi mengapa harus aku gusar akan perkara ini lagi?

the result is still the same whether i like it or not.

oh! tidak

2009-04-11T14:12:00.004+08:00

introducing.........

TOMOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WTF? najwa minat tomok???
tak..tak...jangan tuduh melulu..fitnah tu..
(cover line..cover line..)

aku tidaklah meminati jejaka ini seperti aku meminati hyde, yasu, ikuta dan haruma. dan t.o.p, g-dragon, tae yang, ruki.

tetapi mamat ini yang dikenali sebagai tomok, atau sekarang tidak lagi mahu menggunakan nama tersebut kerana bimbang "sejarah mungkin berulang" (lol) membuat keputusan untuk menggunakan nama sebenarnya iaitu inderawan. INDERAWAN? well, it sounds better without the 'wan' there.

anyway. who cares about his name?

he got talent dude! i mean, his voice is not that fantabulous, but what makes him survive in One In A Million (OIAM) is because of his creativity. he mixes the song to become a much better version, especially umbrella by rihanna, crazy in love by beyonce, ingin bersamamu by syafinaz and the latest one aku cinta padamu by sheila majid.

gawd i'm sick. sangat unbelievable. tetapi sekali lagi diulangi,

aku tidak meminati tomok/new boyz/shah inderawan/inderawan/peserta oiam yang memenangi immunity 2 kali/budak emo.

gagaga.

and i freaking like the hair.

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aw come on! like u don't know my taste oredy.

ketupat

2009-04-10T09:16:00.004+08:00

kenapa perempuan suka buat ketupat? kerana perempuan lemah lembut. tidak menggunakan kekasaran untuk menyelesaikan sesuatu masalah. tapi tidak lemah dan tidak lembut apabila menggunakan mulut.

perempuan tiada pilihan lain selain membuat ketupat apabila berasa tidak puas hati akan sesuatu perkara atau seseorang. bagi perempuan, mereka (or should i say kami) bimbang dan takut jika kami menyatakan perkara itu di hadapan manusia tersebut, manusia berkenaan akan terasa hati/kecil hati/sakit hati/marah/sedih dan sewaktu dengannya. kalau lelaki, mereka menggunakan alternatif tangan dan kaki. tapi perempuan tiada alternatif sedemikian.

oleh sebab itu, perempuan amat gemarkan ketupat, walaupun hari itu bukan hari raya aidilfitri mahupun aidiladha.

ya, walaupun ketupat sudah berbakul-bakul siap tetapi masalah itu belum juga selesai, bahkan mungkin bertambah teruk. tetapi, sekurang-kurangnya beban kami berkurangan, cuma dosa sahaja bertambah. mungkin dua, tiga kali ganda. mungkin.

pengajaran artikel ini ialah, janganlah kita mudah membuat keputusan untuk membuat ketupat, walaupun kita sangat sukakan ketupat, kalau dalam satu hari tak buat ketupat memang kena gastrik. oleh itu, untuk mengelakkan perempuan membuat ketupat overtime, kita hendaklah terima dengan seadanya apa yang seseorang itu khabarkan kepada kita, baik atau buruk.

ya, mungkin kita akan kecil hati/terasa hati/sakit hati/marah/sedih, tapi setidaknya kita tahu mereka juga merasakan perkara yang sama apabila mereka membuat keputusan untuk meluahkan perkara itu kepada kita.

dan lelaki di luar sana, jangan ingat perempuan sahaja gemarkan ketupat. lelaki pun tidak ada bezanya. malah kadang-kadang sampai satu lori.

*******CINTAILAH BAHASA MELAYU 'BAKU'/'ORIGINAL' KITA***********

gunakan bahasa baku, bahasa surat instead of bahasa pasar. kerana itu lebih bermakna. :)